Friday, February 22, 2008
if you don't like my emo posts, don't read this post.
encountered something unpleasant today. Its sad when we've been friends for a year, but not for the next. Its even more sad when you forgot my birthday present, or my birthday, or pretend you know me, because not knowing the truth makes it worse. i don't understand what there is to hide, when it really hurts to feign ignorence, and yet all of you were so crude and mean. i gave u two presents: a birthday, and a vday. The birthday present was to let you know how special a friend u were to me. the v day present was to thank you for being such a special friend to me. but yet, u totally misread me, you saw me for the wrong reasons u thought i had in me. the message i wrote on the latter was so that nobody would get angry under the wrong reasons. the difference in size was obvious, but u had it obviously wrong. i just wanted to thank you for being morehelpful and nice to me in sec one, when the others didn't know i existed. you were practically my best friend in sec one, but now you have became another person. so what's the problem? your misinterpretation. your misclarification. your misunderstanding. so here comes the phrase "if only you knew" it would have been a tad too late. too late to feel guilty, to late to feel wrong. i don't ask for your sympathy, nor your emphathy, i don't even want an "i'm sorry". just your reflection. Go reflect, and when you think you understand what i mean, go reflect again because you don't. Think about what comes to hurting people, what comes to telling the truth and not hiding it, and what comes to learning to understand instead to misinterpret and start on the wrong track. i do not blame you, but feel sad for you, because if you weren't me you wouldn't have felt what i had felt. i'm sorry for staring at you, because i won't ever know you anymore.
encountered something unpleasant today. Its sad when we've been friends for a year, but not for the next. Its even more sad when you forgot my birthday present, or my birthday, or pretend you know me, because not knowing the truth makes it worse. i don't understand what there is to hide, when it really hurts to feign ignorence, and yet all of you were so crude and mean. i gave u two presents: a birthday, and a vday. The birthday present was to let you know how special a friend u were to me. the v day present was to thank you for being such a special friend to me. but yet, u totally misread me, you saw me for the wrong reasons u thought i had in me. the message i wrote on the latter was so that nobody would get angry under the wrong reasons. the difference in size was obvious, but u had it obviously wrong. i just wanted to thank you for being morehelpful and nice to me in sec one, when the others didn't know i existed. you were practically my best friend in sec one, but now you have became another person. so what's the problem? your misinterpretation. your misclarification. your misunderstanding. so here comes the phrase "if only you knew" it would have been a tad too late. too late to feel guilty, to late to feel wrong. i don't ask for your sympathy, nor your emphathy, i don't even want an "i'm sorry". just your reflection. Go reflect, and when you think you understand what i mean, go reflect again because you don't. Think about what comes to hurting people, what comes to telling the truth and not hiding it, and what comes to learning to understand instead to misinterpret and start on the wrong track. i do not blame you, but feel sad for you, because if you weren't me you wouldn't have felt what i had felt. i'm sorry for staring at you, because i won't ever know you anymore.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:48 pm.
