Wednesday, April 30, 2008
i have scary dreams every night. all the same though...there's blood everywhere. everywhere i go, its a sea of red. I feel my pulse silencing, i cry. I'm scared. i look over to my friends from my desperate plea. They stare at me, then they go further and further and eventually disappear. my eyes glow the shade of crimson, i just watch them fade away, emotionless. the sky darkens but i just stand and wait for nothing. coldness engulfs me and i stare yet again, emotionless. i'm scared...i really am, that one day everyone will disappear infront of my eyes like my dream. Fragments of my emotions shatter and disintegrate into the thin wasp air around me.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:10 pm.
feelin' jazzy??
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:29 pm.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
haha, lynette's such a sweetie :D She's always praising my violin^^ though i really appreciate it! (^-^)b (hahaha thanks <3)
Went out to buy furniture today, as of late our house looks like that of a newspaper gurung's. I hope it will be done soon, then can move in soon <3 i have yet to finish my hard copy e-learning homework, hope my mother won't ask me again. The weather was just so...muggy today!! ;O i woke up, then slept out of heat exhaustion. then woke up, then undesirably slept again. I just can't stand the weather nowadays, we must be the country most affected by global warming tsk tsk. met up with li xian! ;) and family and went to thomson plaza to eat dinner. haha, we'll be going to the esplanade to search for scores tmrw for my sister's mep exam.(lixian's her duet mate)i see the last train passing by my house again. it always has an anxious running sound, like tired people jogging 2.4km, who wants anything but to jog at that penicious hour of...NAAAPPPFFFAAAAAA...:o(haha remember this phrase from macbeth?!) *yawns* i hope tomorrow will be a good day, i'll remember to send my powerpoint slides to lky(its not lee kuan yew, its lau kar yee xDD) before i turn in, i will post two random things my sister said. very random hahahaha :D
"EHH KEEP QUIET KEEP QUIET LET ME TELL FINISH MY STORY FIRST!!"
"WHEN I GROW UP I SHALL BE A NUN!!!"
seems like that wasn't the last train. another one just went by. it makes me feel like i'm so lazy...someone please throw me into the nearest swimming pool, or slam me into the nearest wall or shake me till i wake up!! *groans at the sight of homework and...mondayyy* oh well, tomorrow will be another day of my 13 year old life, its good to cherish it and remember while we still can! (^-^)/ g'night!!
Went out to buy furniture today, as of late our house looks like that of a newspaper gurung's. I hope it will be done soon, then can move in soon <3 i have yet to finish my hard copy e-learning homework, hope my mother won't ask me again. The weather was just so...muggy today!! ;O i woke up, then slept out of heat exhaustion. then woke up, then undesirably slept again. I just can't stand the weather nowadays, we must be the country most affected by global warming tsk tsk. met up with li xian! ;) and family and went to thomson plaza to eat dinner. haha, we'll be going to the esplanade to search for scores tmrw for my sister's mep exam.(lixian's her duet mate)i see the last train passing by my house again. it always has an anxious running sound, like tired people jogging 2.4km, who wants anything but to jog at that penicious hour of...NAAAPPPFFFAAAAAA...:o(haha remember this phrase from macbeth?!) *yawns* i hope tomorrow will be a good day, i'll remember to send my powerpoint slides to lky(its not lee kuan yew, its lau kar yee xDD) before i turn in, i will post two random things my sister said. very random hahahaha :D
"EHH KEEP QUIET KEEP QUIET LET ME TELL FINISH MY STORY FIRST!!"
"WHEN I GROW UP I SHALL BE A NUN!!!"
seems like that wasn't the last train. another one just went by. it makes me feel like i'm so lazy...someone please throw me into the nearest swimming pool, or slam me into the nearest wall or shake me till i wake up!! *groans at the sight of homework and...mondayyy* oh well, tomorrow will be another day of my 13 year old life, its good to cherish it and remember while we still can! (^-^)/ g'night!!
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:55 pm.
Friday, April 25, 2008
i will never forget you
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 1:43 pm.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
My world is upside down, downside up, then upside down. so thats why life is full of ups and downs, because the earth is constantly moving under our minute feet. The craziest, though not busiest life i have, with the craziest family, the craziest friends, the craziest PE scheme, etc. sometimes i just can't wait for everything to end, then i can settle down and read a book, do things that i want, listen to more music, have more time to practise...the life of a slacker is that appreciated.
i think i want to try for IP...go nanyang/rgs, seems like a good choice. though i will feel very bad for leaving snso, since some people there _______, and practically all my friends are trying out for IP/leaving the school for other purposes, i might as well just leave the school to somewhere much happier. don't ask me why. i'll be able to make new friends, start anew, clear of all bad memories i left behind, isn't that what everyone wants? ehh, why am i so emo today :\
i want someone to cheer me up, someone i can share all my memories with, whether good or bad, someone who likes me for who i am. i'll be the luckiest girl on earth if i have someone to care for me like that :)even though i constantly feel so down, i'm usually up whenever i can be so that the people around me can be happy and bouncy(haha!) and laugh and laugh and laugh. maybe i just miss having a special friend like that. if i had time too, i would vomit out everything i had stuffed in my heart.
i made contacts today! :D was merry till my sister told me she found out who said i looked like a c**** scholar =.=|| apparantly she's from 4D. oh well, there are pros you know?? like being able to twist that tongue faster, passing every cl test like eating chips. haha, okay no offence. i really mean that there can be pros.
"How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light."
Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived. There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
i think i want to try for IP...go nanyang/rgs, seems like a good choice. though i will feel very bad for leaving snso, since some people there _______, and practically all my friends are trying out for IP/leaving the school for other purposes, i might as well just leave the school to somewhere much happier. don't ask me why. i'll be able to make new friends, start anew, clear of all bad memories i left behind, isn't that what everyone wants? ehh, why am i so emo today :\
i want someone to cheer me up, someone i can share all my memories with, whether good or bad, someone who likes me for who i am. i'll be the luckiest girl on earth if i have someone to care for me like that :)even though i constantly feel so down, i'm usually up whenever i can be so that the people around me can be happy and bouncy(haha!) and laugh and laugh and laugh. maybe i just miss having a special friend like that. if i had time too, i would vomit out everything i had stuffed in my heart.
i made contacts today! :D was merry till my sister told me she found out who said i looked like a c**** scholar =.=|| apparantly she's from 4D. oh well, there are pros you know?? like being able to twist that tongue faster, passing every cl test like eating chips. haha, okay no offence. i really mean that there can be pros.
"How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light."
Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived. There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
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何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:01 pm.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
sit back and relax. Is that real?? sometimes we really do so much, so much that we forgot how to sit back and relax. when we do, we feel uneasy and uncomfortable, to the extent of looking for work to do, because it feels strange to have no work at all, as if there was something we forgot to do. the same routine everyday, the same school, same track (!), same class, same canteen food, sometimes we get sick of all these. we need a change, for the better. the best medicine to stress is laughter. just laugh, and things tend to get lighter, even your mood. even though there are people disturbing you, criticising you for every small thing you do wrongly, or even worse, laughing at you for the wrong thing, it makes you feel horrible. Makes you feel like smacking their ass with a baseball bat and they disappear into the far horizon like team rocket. yeah right. surely there must be something to mend this?? i tried simply everything, but everything turns out so wrong and so fake. "we're not angry at all" or "why are you doing this? its so weird really. just stop it" "thats ugly" all the hurtful things in the world start pouring into your ears from their mouths. surely there must be a reason for doing all these? surely you could share? please??
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:28 pm.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
hahahahaiyah, i'm sooooooooo bored :( bio test this friday, and i have yet to study, but i don't feel like studying now. my japanese teacher was lolling around being lame today :\
"EVEN THOUGH I HAVE LOW BLOOD CHOLESTORAL, EVERY MORNING I STILL JUMP OUT OFF BED LIKE A TOAST!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA
its been a long time since i went out with my friends. the last time was....in february or january, when i went crashing in the arcade with arekisu :D haha, it was so fun! then i went dizzy in kinokuniya because the number of books there were blinding me with their ditzy covers. :O darn!
i'm rushing for 8 projects, not counting common tests, and ting xie and my speech(both japanese and english) T.T and my home econs partner will slaughter me(i swear!) if i don't bring my things this friday...can't forget!! sorrry tabitha, i'm forgetful and stupid :( i promise i'll remember!!!!!! ^v^b tea towel! plastic bag! erm...oh apron! and container! and, and, and, and! hmm...textbook! pencil box! shower cap?! i'm quite sure i somehow missed something, haha.
there's a weird spraying sound oozing from the back of the bathroom :O and my fingers are damaged. not thoroughly, just slits done out of good will. concentrated hydrochloric acid almost tore my skin off and then playing with MA's watch(hahaha! xD) i hope tomorrow will be a good day, and that i will finish studying my bio soon! :D is my blog hard to load? can pls tag and tell me if it is? then i'll know its time i changed my blogskin (^-^)/ thanks!
a tiny incident during jap class today......
"ehh? what comes after the -masu form?"
"err...selamat??!"
and its fine if you take my car back every week! :) i really won't mind, its more enjoyable this way.
"EVEN THOUGH I HAVE LOW BLOOD CHOLESTORAL, EVERY MORNING I STILL JUMP OUT OFF BED LIKE A TOAST!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA
its been a long time since i went out with my friends. the last time was....in february or january, when i went crashing in the arcade with arekisu :D haha, it was so fun! then i went dizzy in kinokuniya because the number of books there were blinding me with their ditzy covers. :O darn!
i'm rushing for 8 projects, not counting common tests, and ting xie and my speech(both japanese and english) T.T and my home econs partner will slaughter me(i swear!) if i don't bring my things this friday...can't forget!! sorrry tabitha, i'm forgetful and stupid :( i promise i'll remember!!!!!! ^v^b tea towel! plastic bag! erm...oh apron! and container! and, and, and, and! hmm...textbook! pencil box! shower cap?! i'm quite sure i somehow missed something, haha.
there's a weird spraying sound oozing from the back of the bathroom :O and my fingers are damaged. not thoroughly, just slits done out of good will. concentrated hydrochloric acid almost tore my skin off and then playing with MA's watch(hahaha! xD) i hope tomorrow will be a good day, and that i will finish studying my bio soon! :D is my blog hard to load? can pls tag and tell me if it is? then i'll know its time i changed my blogskin (^-^)/ thanks!
a tiny incident during jap class today......
"ehh? what comes after the -masu form?"
"err...selamat??!"
and its fine if you take my car back every week! :) i really won't mind, its more enjoyable this way.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:43 pm.
Friday, April 11, 2008
why why how who when what!! i love music--to the extent that not being able to listen to it makes me angry and putrid and irritated. bleh. (-_-)/
string got better today ;) mr goh said we were 1/2 silver 1/2 gold (quote: this is definitely of silver standard) (^-^)b yay i hope we get loads better! and that other things (namely ___ and ___) will get better. neopets is hanging and retarded again! T.T how to play?? how how ow... :( i wan free things from the money tree!
this week i'm really weird. being weird, haha actually i'm weird almost all the time :P and then MA was sitting at the back with this meditating posture!(omm...) :D haha! and we all forgot ___'s name(haha but i remembered soon after!) :) japanese isn't going well for me :( wee sensei doesn't seem much of a help to my speech, that is, something i've got to solve quick! if there's anyone good in japanese and willing to help me, please dooo :(( sometimes i feel the world is upside down. justice doesn't win and instead the bad guys are much stronger(just that the good guys are larger in quantity). when i grow up, i'll be someone in the middle. so that i'll be stronger and yet have more company :) i want to have more friends, i want to play with more people who like me for who i am! :D its nice knowing that you have a friend who will never leave you, accept you and gives you a genuine smile (^-^)b.
"what if she doesn't like me?"
"what's there not to like?"
me: ehh amanda, why are we always stuck in the jam outside the hall after assembly?"
amanda: thats 'cos we're sticky xDD
then there was the conversation in class after school......
yuting: make sure you handle her violin with care!
wengchen: yup, once broken considered sold! :D
i love carmen fantasy, i can't stop listening to it hahaha^^ oh well, the hustle week's fiinnnallly oooooovvveeeerr!! (^-^)/ byebye!
string got better today ;) mr goh said we were 1/2 silver 1/2 gold (quote: this is definitely of silver standard) (^-^)b yay i hope we get loads better! and that other things (namely ___ and ___) will get better. neopets is hanging and retarded again! T.T how to play?? how how ow... :( i wan free things from the money tree!
this week i'm really weird. being weird, haha actually i'm weird almost all the time :P and then MA was sitting at the back with this meditating posture!(omm...) :D haha! and we all forgot ___'s name(haha but i remembered soon after!) :) japanese isn't going well for me :( wee sensei doesn't seem much of a help to my speech, that is, something i've got to solve quick! if there's anyone good in japanese and willing to help me, please dooo :(( sometimes i feel the world is upside down. justice doesn't win and instead the bad guys are much stronger(just that the good guys are larger in quantity). when i grow up, i'll be someone in the middle. so that i'll be stronger and yet have more company :) i want to have more friends, i want to play with more people who like me for who i am! :D its nice knowing that you have a friend who will never leave you, accept you and gives you a genuine smile (^-^)b.
"what if she doesn't like me?"
"what's there not to like?"
me: ehh amanda, why are we always stuck in the jam outside the hall after assembly?"
amanda: thats 'cos we're sticky xDD
then there was the conversation in class after school......
yuting: make sure you handle her violin with care!
wengchen: yup, once broken considered sold! :D
i love carmen fantasy, i can't stop listening to it hahaha^^ oh well, the hustle week's fiinnnallly oooooovvveeeerr!! (^-^)/ byebye!
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:07 pm.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
hhihihihihihihihihi....haha feeling very random :B i just got a rather disgusting haircut T.T anyway, quite alot of things happened since my last post. yuting sounded so wrong, hahaha :D
yuting: WENGCHEN
me: ??
yuting: I NEED YOU
me and jane: roars with laughter
yuting: FOR MY MATHS LA!!
and my sister is grumbling away because she can't watch wo cai. oh well, guess my mother forgot that we were recording it and switched off the sockets. again.
sometimes good things happen to people who do not deserve it as much, but its all part of life showing its flair of unfairness. I'll watch agent cody banks now, before my sister goes out with her friends. bye! ;D
yuting: WENGCHEN
me: ??
yuting: I NEED YOU
me and jane: roars with laughter
yuting: FOR MY MATHS LA!!
and my sister is grumbling away because she can't watch wo cai. oh well, guess my mother forgot that we were recording it and switched off the sockets. again.
sometimes good things happen to people who do not deserve it as much, but its all part of life showing its flair of unfairness. I'll watch agent cody banks now, before my sister goes out with her friends. bye! ;D
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:05 am.
