Sunday, November 30, 2008
yesterday was, quite fun :D went out with lixian and boyi and alex after boyi finally finished his A levels! xD good luck!
mrs chatterji shocked me today in an unpleasant way. she was talking about all her rowdy and bad students in the past, then she suddenly cornered me and said "I haven't received your work in a looong, loooooooong time." I think my heart stopped when she said that, but my brain didn't, cos i remembered having handed up all my homework every week. but she just looked so intimidating, i just kept my mouth shut. then 15 minutes later, she said "oh, actually i realised that i've returned you all your work, so i have no records of it. oh well." i suddenly felt like stabbing her or something. urrrgh.
for those of you who hate reading rants on blogs you can skip the next paragraph.
sometimes, i really just hate myself. After you said that, i think my confidence just sloped down drastically. I know i'm freaking ugly, that i'm not as smart as anyone smart, i lack all the humour that my sister has, and that i can't do things as well as other people. you keep telling me that i'm so careless and blah blah blah and make me feel so damn embarrassed. I don't need your pity, i just need someone who likes me for who i am. well so what if i'm freaking ugly or something, its not my fault so i don't really care. at least i'm smarter than some other people. my sister has humour, so what? i know i just stoned throughout the whole conversation cos i didn't have anything in particular i wanted to say, and that its so obvious you didn't like talking to me =.= just really angry that i'm confused. for once, i shall use this word: PISSED. pissed that you have issues. pissed that i have issues.
mrs chatterji shocked me today in an unpleasant way. she was talking about all her rowdy and bad students in the past, then she suddenly cornered me and said "I haven't received your work in a looong, loooooooong time." I think my heart stopped when she said that, but my brain didn't, cos i remembered having handed up all my homework every week. but she just looked so intimidating, i just kept my mouth shut. then 15 minutes later, she said "oh, actually i realised that i've returned you all your work, so i have no records of it. oh well." i suddenly felt like stabbing her or something. urrrgh.
for those of you who hate reading rants on blogs you can skip the next paragraph.
sometimes, i really just hate myself. After you said that, i think my confidence just sloped down drastically. I know i'm freaking ugly, that i'm not as smart as anyone smart, i lack all the humour that my sister has, and that i can't do things as well as other people. you keep telling me that i'm so careless and blah blah blah and make me feel so damn embarrassed. I don't need your pity, i just need someone who likes me for who i am. well so what if i'm freaking ugly or something, its not my fault so i don't really care. at least i'm smarter than some other people. my sister has humour, so what? i know i just stoned throughout the whole conversation cos i didn't have anything in particular i wanted to say, and that its so obvious you didn't like talking to me =.= just really angry that i'm confused. for once, i shall use this word: PISSED. pissed that you have issues. pissed that i have issues.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:36 am.
