Tuesday, March 24, 2009
i have nothing to blog about today T___T (mull) besides how tired i am.
tired. tired. TIRED!
went to bed at 1am yesterday and even then, couldn't fall asleep with such a preoccupied mental status. (some people may think 1am's still early but you happen to be talking to a person who can't wake up if she sleeps later than 11.30pm :D peace!)
so i was half asleep throughout the entire day, with the nagging need to sleep in class but yet unable to do so because of the teachers present.
slurring in my speech makes me feel drunk :X i remember telling joey in my ultimate sleepiness that "omgican'ttakeitanymorehahahahahaaa......(falls asleep)" and, i feel really ___ over what you've said. i'm not disappointed in you, neither am i going crazy cos i "wasted" so much effort, i'm just...tired. irresponsibly tired. so much that i was unconsciously playing the violin today (yes i know pris and jomain were laughing xD) and my mind suddenly konked out, everything went blur and i almost fell from my chair during rehearsals because of that.
its not for me you know, its not just because of me. Its because...nothing will ever be the same for me if you...you know. don't do this to me if you care T.T cos i won't be able to take the blow when that time comes. i'm sorry but, the thing you said...is starting to make sense, and is starting to take shape...
こんなに疲れたの原因はそうかもしれないが、
それは余り関係ないだと思うけれど。
もう有りえないって、兎に角やらないって、
心の中には全然違うな理解でしょう?
I don't want to play mind games anymore...T.T まだ分からずに我儘をすれば・・・本当に、疲れられるよ。its tough being me, that sometimes i just wanna let go. you know, it'd be so much better to just forget everything and live a happy life being me and just me, not someone i'm trying to upkeep, upgrade and maintain everyday. if you kept reading the same book over and over again, wouldn't you get sick of it? wouldn't you look forward to a more interesting, fresh book to read? i really want my comfort zone but everything keeps pushing me out of it...rawr! D:
i feel like saying lots and lots and lots of things, but suddenly...i feel kinda empty. like there's nothing to say. yeah okay nothing to say so i'll stop blogging here :D
dont ask me if i'm fine, cos i am perfectly fine but i just need to drone everything out on this blogpost hahaha xD
P.S.: eliz! what blazer?! what conference?! :3
jyaaa, ne! <3
tired. tired. TIRED!
went to bed at 1am yesterday and even then, couldn't fall asleep with such a preoccupied mental status. (some people may think 1am's still early but you happen to be talking to a person who can't wake up if she sleeps later than 11.30pm :D peace!)
so i was half asleep throughout the entire day, with the nagging need to sleep in class but yet unable to do so because of the teachers present.
slurring in my speech makes me feel drunk :X i remember telling joey in my ultimate sleepiness that "omgican'ttakeitanymorehahahahahaaa......(falls asleep)" and, i feel really ___ over what you've said. i'm not disappointed in you, neither am i going crazy cos i "wasted" so much effort, i'm just...tired. irresponsibly tired. so much that i was unconsciously playing the violin today (yes i know pris and jomain were laughing xD) and my mind suddenly konked out, everything went blur and i almost fell from my chair during rehearsals because of that.
its not for me you know, its not just because of me. Its because...nothing will ever be the same for me if you...you know. don't do this to me if you care T.T cos i won't be able to take the blow when that time comes. i'm sorry but, the thing you said...is starting to make sense, and is starting to take shape...
こんなに疲れたの原因はそうかもしれないが、
それは余り関係ないだと思うけれど。
もう有りえないって、兎に角やらないって、
心の中には全然違うな理解でしょう?
I don't want to play mind games anymore...T.T まだ分からずに我儘をすれば・・・本当に、疲れられるよ。its tough being me, that sometimes i just wanna let go. you know, it'd be so much better to just forget everything and live a happy life being me and just me, not someone i'm trying to upkeep, upgrade and maintain everyday. if you kept reading the same book over and over again, wouldn't you get sick of it? wouldn't you look forward to a more interesting, fresh book to read? i really want my comfort zone but everything keeps pushing me out of it...rawr! D:
i feel like saying lots and lots and lots of things, but suddenly...i feel kinda empty. like there's nothing to say. yeah okay nothing to say so i'll stop blogging here :D
dont ask me if i'm fine, cos i am perfectly fine but i just need to drone everything out on this blogpost hahaha xD
P.S.: eliz! what blazer?! what conference?! :3
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:51 pm.
