Thursday, April 30, 2009
so sorry to ruin the post like that.
youtotally don't give a damn about me are a nice person but i'm starting to doubt if...(but whatever i won't do the same thing back at you). ever since the start of this year, all you've been thinking about was x, and the only person you ever cared about was y good for you then :) , who's just so pro in everything (thus you care about y) i'm sorry to say...i don't think i'll be that close to you anymore...after knowing that you only chose to know me cos of my japanese i'm not really important and you don't have to waste your time to bother about me okay? :D . if you only like people because they're cute and smart and get tired of them after awhile, i probably won't show you my happy-go-lucky kawaii side(if i even have one) that much anymore. maybe you'll know after reading this blogpost, the reason i've been quite dull and monotonous when i talked to you recently.
p.s. i learn abcnot to match up to you for my own interests and to upgrade myself.
atashi baka mitai...i just hope you'll realise in time that i'm talking about you.
sorry, and thank you. (uhhh i feel like crying again)
i'm sorry...i just really like you but you disappoint me time and again.
a sparrow just hopped onto a leaf stalk right outside my window >u< its getting phat so the stalk gave way and started swaying hahaha :D kawaii ne.
alls well ends well.
jyaaa, ne! <3
you
p.s. i learn abc
atashi baka mitai...i just hope you'll realise in time that i'm talking about you.
sorry, and thank you. (uhhh i feel like crying again)
i'm sorry...i just really like you but you disappoint me time and again.
a sparrow just hopped onto a leaf stalk right outside my window >u< its getting phat so the stalk gave way and started swaying hahaha :D kawaii ne.
alls well ends well.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 5:42 pm.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Stringers, i'm so proud of all of you. we have done a great job.
life is not smooth-sailing, but it is our passion that drives us on.
even though we didn't get what we wanted so badly, we know that we are, in our hearts, the best orchestra in the world. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! <3
don't be disappointed anymore, cos we all know just how much effort all of us put in. and the results are incredible, we pushed ourselves to the limit. the other ccas won't be able to understand all the suffering we've been through just to come to the results we have today, but at least we know, and we did our best. :D
love ya all!!!
thank you so much, our wonderful sec4 blue badge seniors, who have always been by our side to motivate and encourage us(like the video) even though they have so many tests to study for. especially Jessalyn and Olivia, you're the best seniors anyone could have! :) Jessalyn-hardcore and sentimental, Olivia-Motivational and lame, Rebecca-Nice and caring, Vanessa-Cute and encouraging. (just to name a few) we could never have gotten such wonderful results without all your hard work and help to raise the orchestra to greater heights.
thank you Juniors, we seniors really appreciate the effort you guys put in, and we are so proud to have all of ya as our juniors >u<
and THANK YOU SO SO SO(X INFINITY) MUCH MR CHAN, AKA THE BEST CONDUCTOR IN THE WORLD! you really moved all of us by your sincerity and love. everyone burst into tears not because we played badly, but because we know that you put in so much effort just for us. like skipping one whole week of SSO just to accompany us, its a sacrifice that only an extraordinary man with a big heart would be willing to do. so grateful to you TuT
when we all cried together, as one orchestra body, the feeling was just undescribable. Everyone understood each other's pain and exasperation, and we just cried and wailed while hugging tightly together. The teachers tried their best to console us but failed, for nobody outside String would be able to understand this feeling. But it just shows how bonded we are, like one big musically-inclined family. nobody held grudges, and it wasn't anyone's fault for it is the responsibility of the entire orchestra.
so greens, we know what we have to do. Its going to be tough, but we will strive to lift the orchestra to greater heights, and after handover...its going to be us left in charge. Nobody to push immature blames on, we are the seniors and the lao3da4s of SNSO. lets do it.
let us play, once again, with our heads held high, in the upcoming jubilate, to show the world that St.nicholas girls School's String Orchestra is not to be messed with. for we are, in actual fact, a GWH String Orchestra already <3
"elizabeth! your banana..." xD
so for now, lets forget any hint of sadness and disappointment, for VIENNA and MR CHAN'S BBQ, here we come!
life is not smooth-sailing, but it is our passion that drives us on.
even though we didn't get what we wanted so badly, we know that we are, in our hearts, the best orchestra in the world. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! <3
don't be disappointed anymore, cos we all know just how much effort all of us put in. and the results are incredible, we pushed ourselves to the limit. the other ccas won't be able to understand all the suffering we've been through just to come to the results we have today, but at least we know, and we did our best. :D
love ya all!!!
thank you so much, our wonderful sec4 blue badge seniors, who have always been by our side to motivate and encourage us(like the video) even though they have so many tests to study for. especially Jessalyn and Olivia, you're the best seniors anyone could have! :) Jessalyn-hardcore and sentimental, Olivia-Motivational and lame, Rebecca-Nice and caring, Vanessa-Cute and encouraging. (just to name a few) we could never have gotten such wonderful results without all your hard work and help to raise the orchestra to greater heights.
thank you Juniors, we seniors really appreciate the effort you guys put in, and we are so proud to have all of ya as our juniors >u<
and THANK YOU SO SO SO(X INFINITY) MUCH MR CHAN, AKA THE BEST CONDUCTOR IN THE WORLD! you really moved all of us by your sincerity and love. everyone burst into tears not because we played badly, but because we know that you put in so much effort just for us. like skipping one whole week of SSO just to accompany us, its a sacrifice that only an extraordinary man with a big heart would be willing to do. so grateful to you TuT
when we all cried together, as one orchestra body, the feeling was just undescribable. Everyone understood each other's pain and exasperation, and we just cried and wailed while hugging tightly together. The teachers tried their best to console us but failed, for nobody outside String would be able to understand this feeling. But it just shows how bonded we are, like one big musically-inclined family. nobody held grudges, and it wasn't anyone's fault for it is the responsibility of the entire orchestra.
so greens, we know what we have to do. Its going to be tough, but we will strive to lift the orchestra to greater heights, and after handover...its going to be us left in charge. Nobody to push immature blames on, we are the seniors and the lao3da4s of SNSO. lets do it.
let us play, once again, with our heads held high, in the upcoming jubilate, to show the world that St.nicholas girls School's String Orchestra is not to be messed with. for we are, in actual fact, a GWH String Orchestra already <3
"elizabeth! your banana..." xD
so for now, lets forget any hint of sadness and disappointment, for VIENNA and MR CHAN'S BBQ, here we come!
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:49 pm.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
when St.nicks is at its best, NOONE COMES CLOSE.-mrs goh
may the performance begin.
SYF'S TOMORROW!!! >u<
after the 6 months (one year for Britten) of hard, torturous practice, we'll wow the judges with what we've got.
SNSO komama,
ole ole ah ah!
SNSO komama,
ole ole ah ah!
shout it out,
stringers!
oh~ STRINGERS!!!
"STRINGERS
yes another post :D A LONG ONE.
Tomorrow is our last time before we take centre stage. The last time we'll rehearse as an orchestra before we shine as one. Yes we'll give it our best. We're going to go up there, and give it our all. We'll shock the audience, shock the judges, shock Mr Chan. Heck, we're going to shock ourselves.
Not with a whole bunch out-of-tune notes, notes that don't exist in the score, late/early entrances/exits, a plain boring piece of whatever you want to call it.
No.
We're going to show them what we're really made of (not sugar, spice and everything nice). What our music is truly truly made of.
We grasped the fact that yes, we do want that gold with honours. We've proven it to ourselves that we want it, we've proven to our seniors, friends that we want it. We've proven it to the teachers, Mr Chan that we want it.
We're going to prove to the audience that we want it. We're going to prove to the judges that we want it. We're going to prove that we girls, are about as manly as a guy can get.
Yes, we are (albeit a bit weird to say so).
We've come so far. Dragged ourselves back from all those times of disappointment, anger and hopelessness. Even when others gave up on us, we didn't give up on ourselves. We proved our worth to them and we will render them speechless on Wednesday.
The last time we went in, we came out crying. We ended our piece knowing that it was the best we had ever played and string, we are going to feel the same way this time. I know we will.
We'll exchange glances on stage, uncertain, worried, nervous at the beginning. But I know that as our last note rings throughout the hall, we will stand and smile at the audience (smile, not grimace) and walk off stage, unable to contain our tears our joy.
We will walk backstage, laughter and tears all rolled up into one and we will confidently tell our friends praying for us back in school, our teachers, everyone that our music was brilliant, exceptional, excellent, stellar.
In other words, our music was what we wanted it to be.
Forget what others say, forget what our peers achieved, forget expectations placed on us. Because right now, it's only us and our music. Nothing else matters.
When we walk on stage, the hall will be empty, no audience, no judges. Just our dear orchestra, our dear music and our charming conductor and his baton.
My dears, from now on, his baton will be the apple of your eye.
On Wednesday morning, you will be scared. You will tell me you are scared.
Then I'll tell you i'm scared shitless. Sure, it's normal to be scared, afraid, I'm not telling you to lie to yourself and say no I am not scared at all. Nor am i telling you to be really scared with me.
I'm telling you that you're not alone, as cliche as it sounds, we're all in this together. We are an orchestra, we chose this path and we're going to do this together.
Remember eveything single thing Mr Chan, your tutors, your SLs and I told you. Remember them like you would remember how scared you will be, how intimidating the hall is going to get.
I didn't talk my voice hoarse for nothing today.
Remember that.
We're on our 6th lap, and we're not going to flop dead. We're going to go full speed, we're going to give it all we've got. We're going to fight tooth and nail for what we want, what we deserve.
We're going to be one sound, beat with one heart, play with one goal in mind, play with one soul.
Because we are one.
Snstring. This is all my love for you."
SNSO. DO YOU HAVE THE PASSION?
may the performance begin.
SYF'S TOMORROW!!! >u<
after the 6 months (one year for Britten) of hard, torturous practice, we'll wow the judges with what we've got.
SNSO komama,
ole ole ah ah!
SNSO komama,
ole ole ah ah!
shout it out,
stringers!
oh~ STRINGERS!!!
"STRINGERS
yes another post :D A LONG ONE.
Tomorrow is our last time before we take centre stage. The last time we'll rehearse as an orchestra before we shine as one. Yes we'll give it our best. We're going to go up there, and give it our all. We'll shock the audience, shock the judges, shock Mr Chan. Heck, we're going to shock ourselves.
Not with a whole bunch out-of-tune notes, notes that don't exist in the score, late/early entrances/exits, a plain boring piece of whatever you want to call it.
No.
We're going to show them what we're really made of (not sugar, spice and everything nice). What our music is truly truly made of.
We grasped the fact that yes, we do want that gold with honours. We've proven it to ourselves that we want it, we've proven to our seniors, friends that we want it. We've proven it to the teachers, Mr Chan that we want it.
We're going to prove to the audience that we want it. We're going to prove to the judges that we want it. We're going to prove that we girls, are about as manly as a guy can get.
Yes, we are (albeit a bit weird to say so).
We've come so far. Dragged ourselves back from all those times of disappointment, anger and hopelessness. Even when others gave up on us, we didn't give up on ourselves. We proved our worth to them and we will render them speechless on Wednesday.
The last time we went in, we came out crying. We ended our piece knowing that it was the best we had ever played and string, we are going to feel the same way this time. I know we will.
We'll exchange glances on stage, uncertain, worried, nervous at the beginning. But I know that as our last note rings throughout the hall, we will stand and smile at the audience (smile, not grimace) and walk off stage, unable to contain our tears our joy.
We will walk backstage, laughter and tears all rolled up into one and we will confidently tell our friends praying for us back in school, our teachers, everyone that our music was brilliant, exceptional, excellent, stellar.
In other words, our music was what we wanted it to be.
Forget what others say, forget what our peers achieved, forget expectations placed on us. Because right now, it's only us and our music. Nothing else matters.
When we walk on stage, the hall will be empty, no audience, no judges. Just our dear orchestra, our dear music and our charming conductor and his baton.
My dears, from now on, his baton will be the apple of your eye.
On Wednesday morning, you will be scared. You will tell me you are scared.
Then I'll tell you i'm scared shitless. Sure, it's normal to be scared, afraid, I'm not telling you to lie to yourself and say no I am not scared at all. Nor am i telling you to be really scared with me.
I'm telling you that you're not alone, as cliche as it sounds, we're all in this together. We are an orchestra, we chose this path and we're going to do this together.
Remember eveything single thing Mr Chan, your tutors, your SLs and I told you. Remember them like you would remember how scared you will be, how intimidating the hall is going to get.
I didn't talk my voice hoarse for nothing today.
Remember that.
We're on our 6th lap, and we're not going to flop dead. We're going to go full speed, we're going to give it all we've got. We're going to fight tooth and nail for what we want, what we deserve.
We're going to be one sound, beat with one heart, play with one goal in mind, play with one soul.
Because we are one.
Snstring. This is all my love for you."
SNSO. DO YOU HAVE THE PASSION?
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:22 pm.
Monday, April 27, 2009
2DAYS MORE TO SYF!!! TuT
will be crying buckets on that day, after our performance.
all our hard work, everything...
just on that fateful day.
gabare.
on a side note: then after that, pizza on thursday LEVEL OUTING WHOOOOOOOOO!!! >u<
i so missed 3rd lang today. :( nooo, clar said its a hard hard haaard chapter.
nooo. whyyy :'( anyway, cca was fruitful, so it evens things out i guess. for one, diamond was (sooo niceee! TuT) without mr chan having to blare at us and point at his invisible billboard, cos there was no conductor today. surely today's practise meant something, from the gastric i almost got, and neck and arms that almost dislocated and broke .___. oh well, like everyone says, its just
two.
more.
days.
nervous? happy that i can skip 2 tests? ain't no bread monster no more~ lalala :D totally grateful that school ends at 12.45 tomorrow, cos i skipped lunch just to give a pep talk to the juniors(which happened to arrive late thus i could have eaten lunch but anyway) who didn't seem very keen in what i had to say hahaha xD i'm so sorry, i think i'm a fierce and unfriendly senior TuT forgive me! steph and val, the two aunties sitting behind me, spent 2 hours digressing over their mothers and steph kept feili-ing me xD
well, no one to talk, so nothing to blog. i shall end my post here.
jyaaa, ne! <3
will be crying buckets on that day, after our performance.
all our hard work, everything...
just on that fateful day.
gabare.
on a side note: then after that, pizza on thursday LEVEL OUTING WHOOOOOOOOO!!! >u<
i so missed 3rd lang today. :( nooo, clar said its a hard hard haaard chapter.
nooo. whyyy :'( anyway, cca was fruitful, so it evens things out i guess. for one, diamond was (sooo niceee! TuT) without mr chan having to blare at us and point at his invisible billboard, cos there was no conductor today. surely today's practise meant something, from the gastric i almost got, and neck and arms that almost dislocated and broke .___. oh well, like everyone says, its just
two.
more.
days.
nervous? happy that i can skip 2 tests? ain't no bread monster no more~ lalala :D totally grateful that school ends at 12.45 tomorrow, cos i skipped lunch just to give a pep talk to the juniors(which happened to arrive late thus i could have eaten lunch but anyway) who didn't seem very keen in what i had to say hahaha xD i'm so sorry, i think i'm a fierce and unfriendly senior TuT forgive me! steph and val, the two aunties sitting behind me, spent 2 hours digressing over their mothers and steph kept feili-ing me xD
well, no one to talk, so nothing to blog. i shall end my post here.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:46 pm.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i don't like you SYF.
because of you, i have to go for rehearsals on monday.
because of you, i can't ___ on monday.
yadayadayadayadayadayadayadayadayadaaa!
because of you, i'm going to put in 1001% of effort for SYF.
because, lo and behold, i am WENGCHEN.
people around me keep telling me that there'll be a solar storm in 2012. i keep wondering...sometimes even hoping that its true, cos then i'd be able to dump all my studies aside, and do all that i want to do. well, not that studies is not something i want to do, but i feel pursueing my interests is more important. i want to be a singer. i want to be a radio DJ, or a news reporter. i like to perform, and i like it when people like my performance. then i hear applause and feel this sense of undescribable achievement.
i felt really happy, when i managed to help Nat get into SYF. talking to the teachers, staying back for 3 hours just to get her technique right...i seriously don't mind. if you want it so badly, i'll try my best to help you, cos you deserve it :) congrats, nat! <3
i want to help people, and to teach people to be kind^-^(oh gosh so corny :X)
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life woth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.
les miserables
people who sing with their hearts...kotoba ni dekinai kanji ga shita.
bah, i bet nobody visits my blog :( no body no head. wait, on a side note: no BREAD FOR RECESS AFTER WEDNESDAY DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
i can't believe it, time flies so fast i can't catch it anymore.
why's yumin in melbourne and what am i doing in Singapore! DDD: melbourne looks fun.
today someone kept pushing me in the mrt till my mom started screaming at him :X everyone just compacted and compressed their way in the cabins, i bet only vacuum was left ): then when it finally reached Bugis, people just sorta "BOING!" bounced out of the cabins cos it was too squeezy hahaha xD then i saw this whole flood of monsters(not humans) squashing their way to one small teeny weeny puny minute anythingelsethatyoucanusetodescribesmall escalator. so i just stared, didn't bother pushing anyone, and said "this is Singapore. I don't like Singapore." then the 1000 people infront of me shot me a why're-you-so-unpatriotic look while still squeezing their way up that small escalator.
i totally miss mary-anne to the maxxx. visit me okayyy T___T some evil people bully meee.
hahaha okay gtg now(since i dont have anything to blog about)
p.s. i hope you do really well for your mid-years cos you totally dump me in one corner and heck my existance so i guess your studies really mean so much more than me.
jyaaa, ne! <3
because of you, i have to go for rehearsals on monday.
because of you, i can't ___ on monday.
yadayadayadayadayadayadayadayadayadaaa!
because of you, i'm going to put in 1001% of effort for SYF.
because, lo and behold, i am WENGCHEN.
people around me keep telling me that there'll be a solar storm in 2012. i keep wondering...sometimes even hoping that its true, cos then i'd be able to dump all my studies aside, and do all that i want to do. well, not that studies is not something i want to do, but i feel pursueing my interests is more important. i want to be a singer. i want to be a radio DJ, or a news reporter. i like to perform, and i like it when people like my performance. then i hear applause and feel this sense of undescribable achievement.
i felt really happy, when i managed to help Nat get into SYF. talking to the teachers, staying back for 3 hours just to get her technique right...i seriously don't mind. if you want it so badly, i'll try my best to help you, cos you deserve it :) congrats, nat! <3
i want to help people, and to teach people to be kind^-^(oh gosh so corny :X)
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life woth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.
les miserables
people who sing with their hearts...kotoba ni dekinai kanji ga shita.
bah, i bet nobody visits my blog :( no body no head. wait, on a side note: no BREAD FOR RECESS AFTER WEDNESDAY DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
i can't believe it, time flies so fast i can't catch it anymore.
why's yumin in melbourne and what am i doing in Singapore! DDD: melbourne looks fun.
today someone kept pushing me in the mrt till my mom started screaming at him :X everyone just compacted and compressed their way in the cabins, i bet only vacuum was left ): then when it finally reached Bugis, people just sorta "BOING!" bounced out of the cabins cos it was too squeezy hahaha xD then i saw this whole flood of monsters(not humans) squashing their way to one small teeny weeny puny minute anythingelsethatyoucanusetodescribesmall escalator. so i just stared, didn't bother pushing anyone, and said "this is Singapore. I don't like Singapore." then the 1000 people infront of me shot me a why're-you-so-unpatriotic look while still squeezing their way up that small escalator.
i totally miss mary-anne to the maxxx. visit me okayyy T___T some evil people bully meee.
hahaha okay gtg now(since i dont have anything to blog about)
p.s. i hope you do really well for your mid-years cos you totally dump me in one corner and heck my existance so i guess your studies really mean so much more than me.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:32 pm.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
nowadays when i say baka i mean baka. >:(
you totally treat me like a plush toy and i don't like it.
i feel like a roo now. :X
okay, photos of heidi's birthday partyyy >u<
happy birthday heidi!!! :D
cake cutting :P
I like Kovan Melody! ^-^
Was wearing sunglasses due to the humid and scorching weather >3<
Wengchen <3 Huimin! :D
fromt left: Lydia, Heidi, Jolynn, Me, Huimin <3
Camwhoring with Huimin again hahaha! :P
one of the best birthday parties i've been to, thanks so much for inviting me didi! >u< more photos in class...
Jolynn's world-famous marzipan muffins!!! OICHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII <3 (Jolynn and Joey make me phat in class hahaha! :D)
Our group discussion essay on the English board...so pretty! >u< (Shuqing, Yuanting, Joey and I)
The entire view(i drew a rainbow at the end) kirei neee! :D
okay gotta do my JSC prep now,
jyaaa, ne! <3
you totally treat me like a plush toy and i don't like it.
i feel like a roo now. :X
okay, photos of heidi's birthday partyyy >u<
happy birthday heidi!!! :D
cake cutting :P
I like Kovan Melody! ^-^
Was wearing sunglasses due to the humid and scorching weather >3<
Wengchen <3 Huimin! :D
fromt left: Lydia, Heidi, Jolynn, Me, Huimin <3
Camwhoring with Huimin again hahaha! :P
one of the best birthday parties i've been to, thanks so much for inviting me didi! >u< more photos in class...
Jolynn's world-famous marzipan muffins!!! OICHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII <3 (Jolynn and Joey make me phat in class hahaha! :D)
Our group discussion essay on the English board...so pretty! >u< (Shuqing, Yuanting, Joey and I)
The entire view(i drew a rainbow at the end) kirei neee! :D
okay gotta do my JSC prep now,
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:53 pm.
its not now that i realise that people are selfish.
i lost something extremely important, and i was so anxious till i started crying while looking for it. and all you do is point and laugh at me like i was just playing a fool. its not funny, really. i need someone to understand me, and to take me seriously.
i lost something extremely important, and i was so anxious till i started crying while looking for it. and all you do is point and laugh at me like i was just playing a fool. its not funny, really. i need someone to understand me, and to take me seriously.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 12:23 pm.
Friday, April 24, 2009
MORE THAN 500HOURS OF PRACTICE.
MORE THAN 1000PIECES OF BREAD.
MORE THAN AWESOME ORCHESTRA.
time to show the world. SNSO-Without a Doubt, YES.
one word: exhausted. yesterday when i came home at 10pm after Gu's lesson my knees just buckled and i fell down in the carpark ._. baka mitain da. so i just rushed home, set the aircon to the lowest temperature possible(18C), put it on "powerful" mode so i wouldn't fall asleep and started studying my chem at 11pm.
totally disappointed by today's chinese newspaper discussion, especially when the teacher just bluntly said it was rubbish. we spent alot of time doing...rubbish. and i'm definitely going to fail chem, just worried that i'll get a single digit. please don't let me get a single digit mark...! Q___Q i sacrificed this test for SYF, nothing much to say about that. i realise that i've been failing almost every test this term, not joking or exaggerating and it certainly pains me, but i've decided on something: keep strong, keep moving, keep faith. i'm refraining from smsing anyone to tell them that i'm sad or depressed or anything, i need to train myself to be independant.
"cos someday you're gonna leave me."
Sakakibara Yui looks like NANA kitade :3 i feel like a grumpy old woman .psh. ever since sec1, my interest for anime and manga just dissolved into thin air. poof! maybe because it wasn't an accurate reflection of what i was facing in reality. i feel myself gradually evolving into a monotonous and boring person. :( no mood to go Hamamatsu, when there's so much to do in Singapore.
1)Changi Airport with Yayne!!!2)Green badge outing 3)Orchestra camp4)section outing5)CIP6)NYAA7)Japanese speech contest8)3J outing KBOX 9)going out with Mizukawas 10)outing with Yumi and Norika 11)Job attachment 12) dance 13) violin lessons 14) piano lessons 15)General Musicianship exam 16)National Piano and Violin competition 17)SERVICE LEARNING(icankillmyselfwhenicomebacktosingapore) 18)Jap project 19)going with sis to Kinokuniya 20)shopping with sempai(yes imma drag you out muahahahaaa xD) i keep telling myself its not worth it. at least, the trip's definitely not worth the time i can spend in Singapore studying for Chinese Os and going out with people that i know here.
i will get homesick.
i will get homesick.
i will get homesick.
now i feel sick :X
Speaking of sick, my juniors are so horrendously professional at saying sick stuff xD and gang raping. and, well you don't wanna know :P
why's everyone having mid-years. i want mid-years too. then i wouldn't have to struggle with SS, BIO and GEOG tests in week 10 when everyone else has finished their mid-years and are busy slacking away. One of the reasons why i can only go out on the last week of june, or even not go out at all. i miss sempai...T.T who's rather preoccupied. like me. i want the good ole' days back, the holidays last year one shot...sugu modoritai yanen! >___<
please remind me to go VCH on 12th may to support VJC's String Orchestra and Quek.
okay, gonna go sleep now. (yawwwns) :3 finally, i can sleep 8 hours today!!! :DDDDD
jyaaa, ne! <3
MORE THAN 1000PIECES OF BREAD.
MORE THAN AWESOME ORCHESTRA.
time to show the world. SNSO-Without a Doubt, YES.
one word: exhausted. yesterday when i came home at 10pm after Gu's lesson my knees just buckled and i fell down in the carpark ._. baka mitain da. so i just rushed home, set the aircon to the lowest temperature possible(18C), put it on "powerful" mode so i wouldn't fall asleep and started studying my chem at 11pm.
totally disappointed by today's chinese newspaper discussion, especially when the teacher just bluntly said it was rubbish. we spent alot of time doing...rubbish. and i'm definitely going to fail chem, just worried that i'll get a single digit. please don't let me get a single digit mark...! Q___Q i sacrificed this test for SYF, nothing much to say about that. i realise that i've been failing almost every test this term, not joking or exaggerating and it certainly pains me, but i've decided on something: keep strong, keep moving, keep faith. i'm refraining from smsing anyone to tell them that i'm sad or depressed or anything, i need to train myself to be independant.
"cos someday you're gonna leave me."
Sakakibara Yui looks like NANA kitade :3 i feel like a grumpy old woman .psh. ever since sec1, my interest for anime and manga just dissolved into thin air. poof! maybe because it wasn't an accurate reflection of what i was facing in reality. i feel myself gradually evolving into a monotonous and boring person. :( no mood to go Hamamatsu, when there's so much to do in Singapore.
1)Changi Airport with Yayne!!!2)Green badge outing 3)Orchestra camp4)section outing5)CIP6)NYAA7)Japanese speech contest8)3J outing KBOX 9)going out with Mizukawas 10)outing with Yumi and Norika 11)Job attachment 12) dance 13) violin lessons 14) piano lessons 15)General Musicianship exam 16)National Piano and Violin competition 17)SERVICE LEARNING(icankillmyselfwhenicomebacktosingapore) 18)Jap project 19)going with sis to Kinokuniya 20)shopping with sempai(yes imma drag you out muahahahaaa xD) i keep telling myself its not worth it. at least, the trip's definitely not worth the time i can spend in Singapore studying for Chinese Os and going out with people that i know here.
i will get homesick.
i will get homesick.
i will get homesick.
now i feel sick :X
Speaking of sick, my juniors are so horrendously professional at saying sick stuff xD and gang raping. and, well you don't wanna know :P
why's everyone having mid-years. i want mid-years too. then i wouldn't have to struggle with SS, BIO and GEOG tests in week 10 when everyone else has finished their mid-years and are busy slacking away. One of the reasons why i can only go out on the last week of june, or even not go out at all. i miss sempai...T.T who's rather preoccupied. like me. i want the good ole' days back, the holidays last year one shot...sugu modoritai yanen! >___<
please remind me to go VCH on 12th may to support VJC's String Orchestra and Quek.
okay, gonna go sleep now. (yawwwns) :3 finally, i can sleep 8 hours today!!! :DDDDD
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:09 pm.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I am strongly appalled and truly disappointed in having such an immature teacher. It hasn't been the first, will not be the last, and has affected many of 3J. Though i shall not follow suite by ignoring and throwing unnecessary tantrums at such a person(not to mention someone who's doing all that), i believe that there needs to be some extent of reflection done. Certainly, you are the teacher, and like slaves cannot oppose their masters, students disobeying you for obvious reasons would be futile and considered a sheer act of "rebellion". i would, hence, like to seek advice on how to deal with such situations, without having to vent any frustration on my poor blog. i'm not really angry at HER, but more of worried that she'll tell my cca teacher that ___. oh well...not like i'll ___.
i still live by my motto, that:
as long as i am certain and righteous, i have no reason to fear.
hallelujah.
別れは会うの初め。
私はこの件に関する皆のご協力をいただきたいと思います...我々の決定を援助してください。
もう時間がないし、遠慮してはいけないんだ。
spent close to 3 hours teaching charis chuwen and natasha lee varella (i like your name!!! :D) technique, bow holding, dynamics. very extremely tired >3< spent 15 mins with may talking to OCC to let the juniors in for SYF...i'm trying my best to help you, so you should do your part and help yourself too okay :) i have faith in all of ya! :P
嬉しい。
あたし、確かに強くなったよ。
駄目だと思ったけど全然諦めなかった。
お好みです。
頑張れ、ヤホー！\(>A<)/
jyaaa, ne! <3
i still live by my motto, that:
as long as i am certain and righteous, i have no reason to fear.
hallelujah.
別れは会うの初め。
私はこの件に関する皆のご協力をいただきたいと思います...我々の決定を援助してください。
もう時間がないし、遠慮してはいけないんだ。
spent close to 3 hours teaching charis chuwen and natasha lee varella (i like your name!!! :D) technique, bow holding, dynamics. very extremely tired >3< spent 15 mins with may talking to OCC to let the juniors in for SYF...i'm trying my best to help you, so you should do your part and help yourself too okay :) i have faith in all of ya! :P
嬉しい。
あたし、確かに強くなったよ。
駄目だと思ったけど全然諦めなかった。
お好みです。
頑張れ、ヤホー！\(>A<)/
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:20 pm.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
i will always remember.
a part of you.
gosh...so tired. extremely super tired. my eyes are aching from staring at the laptop for just 5 minutes. anyway, i've got a goal to chase for. no time to waste on complaining and ranting. String Orch, we can do it!!!
-the last lap.
jyaaa, ne! <3
a part of you.
gosh...so tired. extremely super tired. my eyes are aching from staring at the laptop for just 5 minutes. anyway, i've got a goal to chase for. no time to waste on complaining and ranting. String Orch, we can do it!!!
-the last lap.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:18 pm.
Monday, April 20, 2009
sometimes, people just fail to cherish what they have presently. thenafter, regret. when, in actual fact, if they'd just bother to show more concern to something or someone, they wouldn't have to feel so painful in the end.
i just really hope that...things will change.
i realise, after trying so hard to change myself in all aspects, that my motivation has always been to gain recognition. be it a person, or many people...i have always wanted recognition.
i want people to know that i exist in this world.
so that they wouldn't keep treating me like dirt on the floor.
so that, indirectly, i wouldn't always have this stinging feeling in my heart. mendokuse.
i'm always playing with stakes.
我的命虽然比那些人不运多了，但至少我要努力创造出属于我自己的天地。
让别人能抬头感叹的成就，梦寐以求的地位。
以后，那些看不起或取笑过我的人都要闭嘴了。
不然我死咗去好過咯 :3 hahaha kidding!
bleh, what am i talking about asldkfjslgjkh
just ignore .___. i wanna cry it all out.
and after crying, its time to get moving. motivate the section. then motivate the orchestra. not me, WE can DO IT. i believe we can! we, as seniors, are putting in infinite amounts of dedication...some of us even practise till we drop dead and start crying. hard work will pay off, we just have to have the CONFIDENCE :D. jiayou!
i love this cca.
i love my cca mates. no matter what they say, nothing can take away my passion for music.
i want to motivate everyone to love the cca, to soar with music together, to achieve our common goal: GOLD. WITH. HONOURS. i'll be pushing you guys muahahaha xD
i wish i had mid-years.
then i wouldn't have to struggle with so many tests until may 30. i'm sorry, i won't be able to go out till the last week of june...gomen!!!
okay, gonna go study now.
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright
jyaaa, ne! <3
i just really hope that...things will change.
i realise, after trying so hard to change myself in all aspects, that my motivation has always been to gain recognition. be it a person, or many people...i have always wanted recognition.
i want people to know that i exist in this world.
so that they wouldn't keep treating me like dirt on the floor.
so that, indirectly, i wouldn't always have this stinging feeling in my heart. mendokuse.
i'm always playing with stakes.
我的命虽然比那些人不运多了，但至少我要努力创造出属于我自己的天地。
让别人能抬头感叹的成就，梦寐以求的地位。
以后，那些看不起或取笑过我的人都要闭嘴了。
不然我死咗去好過咯 :3 hahaha kidding!
bleh, what am i talking about asldkfjslgjkh
just ignore .___. i wanna cry it all out.
and after crying, its time to get moving. motivate the section. then motivate the orchestra. not me, WE can DO IT. i believe we can! we, as seniors, are putting in infinite amounts of dedication...some of us even practise till we drop dead and start crying. hard work will pay off, we just have to have the CONFIDENCE :D. jiayou!
i love this cca.
i love my cca mates. no matter what they say, nothing can take away my passion for music.
i want to motivate everyone to love the cca, to soar with music together, to achieve our common goal: GOLD. WITH. HONOURS. i'll be pushing you guys muahahaha xD
i wish i had mid-years.
then i wouldn't have to struggle with so many tests until may 30. i'm sorry, i won't be able to go out till the last week of june...gomen!!!
okay, gonna go study now.
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:06 pm.
Friday, April 17, 2009
i feel bad for singaporeans.
whenever i try to cheer them up, they give me this "err...okay?" type of response that makes me feel totally left out. which is why i made a point to myself never ever to treat other people with the "err...?" and the "okay?" type of responses cos it actually hurts a person. i won't do that! :P
arrogant, selfish, pampered and competitive. why, i ask rhetorically. I don't feel like a part of this condescending society of...people with brains but lousy, lousy character. of course, i won't be stereotypical as to say that all singaporeans are like that, but...undeniably, most of them. why, is it their upbringing? their thirst to beat others in social status? to compete without scruple, to be perfect without qualms...tis disappointment in such majority. a seemingly auto-pilot nation.
"the proliferation of a kiasu population" -wengchen (quoted myself xD)
bleeeeeeeeh its been awhile since i last blogged in such a manner :X (the only time when my english seems to improve is when i'm rambling >3<)
"The word kiasu was added to the Oxford English Dictionary in 2007" O.O
a sense of pride but no patrioticism. this is singapore.
°º¤ø„¸ ¸„ø¤º°¨¸„ø¤º°¨
¨°º¤ø„¸ GO WENGCHEN!!!¸„ø¤º°¨
¸„ø¤º°¨keep your head high! `°º¤ø„¸
¸„ø¤º°¨¸„ø¤º°¨¨°º¤ø„¸¨°º¤
hey all the stressful peeps out there! :D
be cool, take it easy.
you won't die if you fail a test. neither will your future be ruined just because of a test.
okay good luck and all the best! >u<
jyaaa, ne! <3
whenever i try to cheer them up, they give me this "err...okay?" type of response that makes me feel totally left out. which is why i made a point to myself never ever to treat other people with the "err...?" and the "okay?" type of responses cos it actually hurts a person. i won't do that! :P
arrogant, selfish, pampered and competitive. why, i ask rhetorically. I don't feel like a part of this condescending society of...people with brains but lousy, lousy character. of course, i won't be stereotypical as to say that all singaporeans are like that, but...undeniably, most of them. why, is it their upbringing? their thirst to beat others in social status? to compete without scruple, to be perfect without qualms...tis disappointment in such majority. a seemingly auto-pilot nation.
"the proliferation of a kiasu population" -wengchen (quoted myself xD)
bleeeeeeeeh its been awhile since i last blogged in such a manner :X (the only time when my english seems to improve is when i'm rambling >3<)
"The word kiasu was added to the Oxford English Dictionary in 2007" O.O
a sense of pride but no patrioticism. this is singapore.
°º¤ø„¸ ¸„ø¤º°¨¸„ø¤º°¨
¨°º¤ø„¸ GO WENGCHEN!!!¸„ø¤º°¨
¸„ø¤º°¨keep your head high! `°º¤ø„¸
¸„ø¤º°¨¸„ø¤º°¨¨°º¤ø„¸¨°º¤
hey all the stressful peeps out there! :D
be cool, take it easy.
you won't die if you fail a test. neither will your future be ruined just because of a test.
okay good luck and all the best! >u<
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:08 pm.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
heyyy people! :D
i've realised, noone is tagging nowadays :( booooo!!!!
so, i've decided to add some colour to my posts in vain hope that some people will bother to TAGGG ;)
local immersion photos are OUT! :)))
starting from left: VERNICE <3. JAMIE <3. NORIKA <3. YUMI <3. ME! <3. MAYSHUEN <3 CELESTE <3.
Tanaka Yumi and wengchen :D (yeahp she's my buddy, Norika is Jamie's :P)
hahaha.
jyaaa, ne! <3
i've realised, noone is tagging nowadays :( booooo!!!!
so, i've decided to add some colour to my posts in vain hope that some people will bother to TAGGG ;)
local immersion photos are OUT! :)))
starting from left: VERNICE <3. JAMIE <3. NORIKA <3. YUMI <3. ME! <3. MAYSHUEN <3 CELESTE <3.
Tanaka Yumi and wengchen :D (yeahp she's my buddy, Norika is Jamie's :P)
hahaha.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:45 pm.
sakubun test...T___T
-restart-
OMGOSH there's a sakubun test?!!! 0_0
-restart-
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE sakubun test!!! >u<
i'm losing interest in many many many things. bwaaaaaaaaaaa :( its the SYF blues!!!
two more weeks, just two more weeks, 14 days...i can do it. WE can do this :)
practice. practise. the key to our goal...everyone's getting really stressed over SYF, growing white hairs hahaha :P (two bow hairs came out one shot after rounds 0.0)
the training is torture, but i believe if we work harder, the results will be bliss :D
recess practice-1/2 hour, for 5 days plus half an hour more on friday=3 hours.
2.30-6.30 for three days=12 hours.
violin lesson=1 hour(but usually lengthened)=1 hour.
self practise=3 hours a week? fluctuates.
total=3+12+1+3=(drumroll) 19 hours of practice a WEEK. just for adklskjfakgh SYF. i have 18 hours less of studying than other people per week hahaha xD (not that i mind actually) plus 3rd lang, piano, dance, theory class, math tuition, chinese tuition, not counting violin lessons
i think my life has alot of phases.
p1 to p2, i was some tomboyish person who had to defend my classmates from bullies cos i was taller .___. p3-p4, i was very talkative and rebelious :P i think my mom received, like 20 phone calls throughout the year from my form teacher/chinese teacher/science teacher(who stils sneers at me =.=) oh, i remember there was a time in p4 before EOYs when my form teacher started screaming at me for almost an hour T___T and after which i merely laughed at her in her face, till she got so frustrated her eyes turned red with fire .___. incredible hahaha xD then at p4 i had a really fun time with woon <3 and "campbell" aka yuwei and yiting partying at woon's house, being crazy, eating incredibly tasty food at woon's house, dancing to random music, watching spy kids...sugoi TuT modoritai!!! (yeah okay my life's very american) then p5 to p6 was rowdy, and really funny going out with the usual "gang" of us xD carolyn, kitchong, weiyun, weehan, edwin and I. thats just...saikou >u< we went out almost every day after PSLE to crowd at random shopping malls, even making multiple trips to Northpoint(the most boring place on earth) and just cherished the time being together :) NAKAYOSHI! (i finally figured out what it means :D) then sec 1was the emoing period, cos my class wasn't really...hahaha nevermind. but i did make some really good friends, like haowen and wenxia :D sec2 was the bimbotic retarded year when people like janetan and dandan and amandalau crashed into my life :P hahaha i still wanna go changi!!! okay now its sec3, and i'll try to make another good memory outta it :D
this is tiring. DO NOT PRESS MY LEFT ARM or i will scream cos its burning horribly >.<
hahaha okay, gonna end this long post here.
jyaaa, ne! <3
-restart-
OMGOSH there's a sakubun test?!!! 0_0
-restart-
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE sakubun test!!! >u<
i'm losing interest in many many many things. bwaaaaaaaaaaa :( its the SYF blues!!!
two more weeks, just two more weeks, 14 days...i can do it. WE can do this :)
practice. practise. the key to our goal...everyone's getting really stressed over SYF, growing white hairs hahaha :P (two bow hairs came out one shot after rounds 0.0)
the training is torture, but i believe if we work harder, the results will be bliss :D
recess practice-1/2 hour, for 5 days plus half an hour more on friday=3 hours.
2.30-6.30 for three days=12 hours.
violin lesson=1 hour(but usually lengthened)=1 hour.
self practise=3 hours a week? fluctuates.
total=3+12+1+3=(drumroll) 19 hours of practice a WEEK. just for adklskjfakgh SYF. i have 18 hours less of studying than other people per week hahaha xD (not that i mind actually) plus 3rd lang, piano, dance, theory class, math tuition, chinese tuition, not counting violin lessons
i think my life has alot of phases.
p1 to p2, i was some tomboyish person who had to defend my classmates from bullies cos i was taller .___. p3-p4, i was very talkative and rebelious :P i think my mom received, like 20 phone calls throughout the year from my form teacher/chinese teacher/science teacher(who stils sneers at me =.=) oh, i remember there was a time in p4 before EOYs when my form teacher started screaming at me for almost an hour T___T and after which i merely laughed at her in her face, till she got so frustrated her eyes turned red with fire .___. incredible hahaha xD then at p4 i had a really fun time with woon <3 and "campbell" aka yuwei and yiting partying at woon's house, being crazy, eating incredibly tasty food at woon's house, dancing to random music, watching spy kids...sugoi TuT modoritai!!! (yeah okay my life's very american) then p5 to p6 was rowdy, and really funny going out with the usual "gang" of us xD carolyn, kitchong, weiyun, weehan, edwin and I. thats just...saikou >u< we went out almost every day after PSLE to crowd at random shopping malls, even making multiple trips to Northpoint(the most boring place on earth) and just cherished the time being together :) NAKAYOSHI! (i finally figured out what it means :D) then sec 1was the emoing period, cos my class wasn't really...hahaha nevermind. but i did make some really good friends, like haowen and wenxia :D sec2 was the bimbotic retarded year when people like janetan and dandan and amandalau crashed into my life :P hahaha i still wanna go changi!!! okay now its sec3, and i'll try to make another good memory outta it :D
this is tiring. DO NOT PRESS MY LEFT ARM or i will scream cos its burning horribly >.<
hahaha okay, gonna end this long post here.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 3:49 pm.
Monday, April 13, 2009
don't wanna go school tomorrow :X
if i'm so lucky, my flu will get a downturn :P
but if i'm not...then. wahhhah no i shant pon school :D (and have never ponned)
MARIAH CAREY AND BRIAN MCKNIGHT <3 lurve.
funny how they sound nice in every song they sing on earth.
hahaha guess what. okay wait on second thought don't guess cos you'll get it wrong. ate toast with a "conjoined effort" with maymayyy xD it was...(get ready a disposable bag) CHICKEN AND CHOCOLATE toast. totally vomit inducing TuT and i had to eat it cos may backed out in the end .___.
hahaha bananaegg/hamkaya/peanutbuttercurry/CHICKENCHOCOLATE omgosh. kudos to the bread stall vendors hahaha! xD
"chia sensei's lipstick brand...********" who's the lucky guy :P
okay gtg now, bye~!
jyaaa, ne! <3
if i'm so lucky, my flu will get a downturn :P
but if i'm not...then. wahhhah no i shant pon school :D (and have never ponned)
MARIAH CAREY AND BRIAN MCKNIGHT <3 lurve.
funny how they sound nice in every song they sing on earth.
hahaha guess what. okay wait on second thought don't guess cos you'll get it wrong. ate toast with a "conjoined effort" with maymayyy xD it was...(get ready a disposable bag) CHICKEN AND CHOCOLATE toast. totally vomit inducing TuT and i had to eat it cos may backed out in the end .___.
hahaha bananaegg/hamkaya/peanutbuttercurry/CHICKENCHOCOLATE omgosh. kudos to the bread stall vendors hahaha! xD
"chia sensei's lipstick brand...********" who's the lucky guy :P
okay gtg now, bye~!
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:01 pm.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
today has been exhausting with only 3/80 pages of geog in my head TuT (i'll be whacking the rest hahaha xD)
gotta stay optimistic...next week's killer week so don't expect me to go online Q_Q
6 tests! luckily st.nicks doesn't have CAs or Midyears or i'd have deflated already :P but with so many tests and drills, its a wonder i'm still coping.
why's my dad so smart when i'm not :/
and, yes i officially miss you mrs Cheung xD aka the most gorgeous woman in the world. i want you to mark my O level english paper! :D
anyway, was studying at amk library today, when i had a most unpleasant experience =.=
i stepped into the library in a haste to study only to find out there were no seats available T___T even the chairs became tables for some people who sat on the floor...to think two levels was enough for a neighbourhood library. so i wandered around the second level and finally~ i found a seat in some newspaper reading section. so i walked in and sat down. then i looked up and felt extremely self-conscious cos all the people there were OLD FOLKS .___. i managed to ignore the looks exchanged between the seniors and studied for geog. then suddenly, from a corner of the small newspaper reading room...
some 30+ guy who looks like an insurance seller feels destructive and pretends to collide with some 18 year old-looking guy while grabbing a newspaper.
18 year old guy: (shoots an indignant glare at the 30+ guy)
30+ guy: (clearly offended by glare and blares) OI! 不是故意的HOR!
18 year old guy: 哇劳ehh！你这种人，走路看好好啦！(shouts across room)
*everyone in the pre-silent room stares curiously at the two of em.(typical Singaporean reaction)
so obviously, i didn't really bother about that cos i was reading my geog textbook. but i was rather shocked, cos i thought this type of stuff only happened in civics and moral textbooks where people are taught not to do this kind of thing. (what happened to peace campaign btw xD) but i was kinda excited hahaha, cos its interesting to look at how stupid people get. then while i was minding my own business, that 30+ guy suddenly stopped at my table and glared at me. he then tore his freaking library-borrowed newspaper in my FACE. 0_0 i froze, stunned and wondering what in the world did i do to offend him. he then shouted at me : go away lah! i want to read newspaper one leh! bring your barang go somewhere else study can!
i was super appalled but yet unnerved at such impolite behaviour. so i just nodded and stood up and sat on a sofa nearby still in the same room. scaryyy! but he shouldn't have taken advantage of the fact that i'm not a senior citizen unlike all the rest. >:( then after awhile, the 18 year old guy that offended him sat opposite him and started reading the newspaper. the 30+ guy immediately looked up from his newspaper and shot a glare at him. hahaha i almost started laughing cos his glare was so...immature, like a small kid glaring at his older sibling for snatching a toy away. okay, so by now, you'd think that its totally the 30+ guy's fault. but when that guy finally left, the 18 year old guy kept yawning so loudly that the whole room of old folks and one indian guy got really annoyed. so now i think its partly the 18 year old guy's fault for being so crude hahaha xD okay, then while i was peacefully studying on the sofa, it got cold all of a sudden so i took my jacket out. then the old man(60+?) sitting on the sofa next to mine kept staring at me. at first i didn't mind, but the stare got so intense that i turned my head to stare back at him. then when i nodded to greet him(i have this retarded habit of bowing and nodding to people :D), he flashed this perverted smile at me (shudders) while i was trying to find the other sleeve of my jacket and said : 要我帮你穿吗? omgosh i was so shocked i just blurted out : 不用了，谢谢！and turned away before he could acknowledge what i said.
funny how in just one small compartment of a library, there are perveted, crude and immature men .___. remind me not to go to that suspicious newspaper room again.
dad's general knowledge and history never fails to surprise me :) today, he was telling me about the hiroshima/nagasaki atomic bomb thing again. really scary...you know, the atomic bomb actually turns people into ash and they vapourise...people who are jogging 500m away from the bomb(which happens to be as hot as the centre of the sun) turn into jogging charcoal people, cos only their outsides are burnt, not the insides. it takes a few seconds before they finally die of the heat T.T can you imagine seeing people made of ash jogging? can you imagine the people around you suddenly vapourising into thin air? i can't, its too horrible. which is why, the atomic bomb was only used once, because to many people, it is really the worst and most painful way to die. btw, the japanese used taiwanese and korean war-victims as suicide aeroplane fighters and bombers...i hate war.
someone just logged off the moment i logged on .___. kirai?
okay gtg now, bye~!
jyaaa, ne! <3
gotta stay optimistic...next week's killer week so don't expect me to go online Q_Q
6 tests! luckily st.nicks doesn't have CAs or Midyears or i'd have deflated already :P but with so many tests and drills, its a wonder i'm still coping.
why's my dad so smart when i'm not :/
and, yes i officially miss you mrs Cheung xD aka the most gorgeous woman in the world. i want you to mark my O level english paper! :D
anyway, was studying at amk library today, when i had a most unpleasant experience =.=
i stepped into the library in a haste to study only to find out there were no seats available T___T even the chairs became tables for some people who sat on the floor...to think two levels was enough for a neighbourhood library. so i wandered around the second level and finally~ i found a seat in some newspaper reading section. so i walked in and sat down. then i looked up and felt extremely self-conscious cos all the people there were OLD FOLKS .___. i managed to ignore the looks exchanged between the seniors and studied for geog. then suddenly, from a corner of the small newspaper reading room...
some 30+ guy who looks like an insurance seller feels destructive and pretends to collide with some 18 year old-looking guy while grabbing a newspaper.
18 year old guy: (shoots an indignant glare at the 30+ guy)
30+ guy: (clearly offended by glare and blares) OI! 不是故意的HOR!
18 year old guy: 哇劳ehh！你这种人，走路看好好啦！(shouts across room)
*everyone in the pre-silent room stares curiously at the two of em.(typical Singaporean reaction)
so obviously, i didn't really bother about that cos i was reading my geog textbook. but i was rather shocked, cos i thought this type of stuff only happened in civics and moral textbooks where people are taught not to do this kind of thing. (what happened to peace campaign btw xD) but i was kinda excited hahaha, cos its interesting to look at how stupid people get. then while i was minding my own business, that 30+ guy suddenly stopped at my table and glared at me. he then tore his freaking library-borrowed newspaper in my FACE. 0_0 i froze, stunned and wondering what in the world did i do to offend him. he then shouted at me : go away lah! i want to read newspaper one leh! bring your barang go somewhere else study can!
i was super appalled but yet unnerved at such impolite behaviour. so i just nodded and stood up and sat on a sofa nearby still in the same room. scaryyy! but he shouldn't have taken advantage of the fact that i'm not a senior citizen unlike all the rest. >:( then after awhile, the 18 year old guy that offended him sat opposite him and started reading the newspaper. the 30+ guy immediately looked up from his newspaper and shot a glare at him. hahaha i almost started laughing cos his glare was so...immature, like a small kid glaring at his older sibling for snatching a toy away. okay, so by now, you'd think that its totally the 30+ guy's fault. but when that guy finally left, the 18 year old guy kept yawning so loudly that the whole room of old folks and one indian guy got really annoyed. so now i think its partly the 18 year old guy's fault for being so crude hahaha xD okay, then while i was peacefully studying on the sofa, it got cold all of a sudden so i took my jacket out. then the old man(60+?) sitting on the sofa next to mine kept staring at me. at first i didn't mind, but the stare got so intense that i turned my head to stare back at him. then when i nodded to greet him(i have this retarded habit of bowing and nodding to people :D), he flashed this perverted smile at me (shudders) while i was trying to find the other sleeve of my jacket and said : 要我帮你穿吗? omgosh i was so shocked i just blurted out : 不用了，谢谢！and turned away before he could acknowledge what i said.
funny how in just one small compartment of a library, there are perveted, crude and immature men .___. remind me not to go to that suspicious newspaper room again.
dad's general knowledge and history never fails to surprise me :) today, he was telling me about the hiroshima/nagasaki atomic bomb thing again. really scary...you know, the atomic bomb actually turns people into ash and they vapourise...people who are jogging 500m away from the bomb(which happens to be as hot as the centre of the sun) turn into jogging charcoal people, cos only their outsides are burnt, not the insides. it takes a few seconds before they finally die of the heat T.T can you imagine seeing people made of ash jogging? can you imagine the people around you suddenly vapourising into thin air? i can't, its too horrible. which is why, the atomic bomb was only used once, because to many people, it is really the worst and most painful way to die. btw, the japanese used taiwanese and korean war-victims as suicide aeroplane fighters and bombers...i hate war.
someone just logged off the moment i logged on .___. kirai?
okay gtg now, bye~!
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:11 pm.
Friday, April 10, 2009
my all---mariah carey.
so many things to do, so little time.
i really regret...really regret not spending more time with you T___T you're gonna leave me one day, and yet i can't bring myself to accept that fact. i miss you. ♥
"cos i can't go on...living in memories."
i don't wanna go for the hamamatsu trip anymore...T.T
i don't get it. there's something wrong with fate, and its probably cos i screwed it up. its people like me who battle against fate, that end up losing more than what we were supposed to lose. but not doing anything about something i can't bring myself to live with...is not me.
tis such irony.
(hugs pillow)
i wonder...when you say there's no such thing as reincarnation. God makes people and throws them down to earth. People then age, grow fat lose hair and die. then they apparantly end up in heaven/hell/whatever/blank space/kallang river. then what'll you do? will you have a CPF? will you have best friends and enemies? will you fall down on a cloud while riding a bike in heaven and injure your knee? will you be able to complain to your friends in heaven "OUCH WTH I INJURED MY KNEEE!!!" it wouldn't be fun...being enemies with someone else for the ETERNITY that people have to spend after they die. and sad to say, it wouldn't be fun either...being friends with someone for eternity. because both parties wouldn't really treasure each other. won't heaven/hell/whatever i listed out above besides kallang river be too crowded and stuffy when so many people keep entering it but don't leave it? i dunno...maybe its really just my childish thinking. but since i always believe in balance, if there's a place for people to end at...there should also be a place for people to start at, and it shouldn't be the same place...(just like heaven and hell aren't the same place) sorry i'm probably offending alot of people here. :X (ducks behind a tree and realises i'm phatter)
okay gonna do some practising and mugging now! :D 80 pages of geog, i can do it!!! \(>A<)/
P.S. i don't use LOL cos it sounds unsincere, like you're not really laughing hahaha xD
so many things to do, so little time.
i really regret...really regret not spending more time with you T___T you're gonna leave me one day, and yet i can't bring myself to accept that fact. i miss you. ♥
"cos i can't go on...living in memories."
i don't wanna go for the hamamatsu trip anymore...T.T
i don't get it. there's something wrong with fate, and its probably cos i screwed it up. its people like me who battle against fate, that end up losing more than what we were supposed to lose. but not doing anything about something i can't bring myself to live with...is not me.
tis such irony.
(hugs pillow)
i wonder...when you say there's no such thing as reincarnation. God makes people and throws them down to earth. People then age, grow fat lose hair and die. then they apparantly end up in heaven/hell/whatever/blank space/kallang river. then what'll you do? will you have a CPF? will you have best friends and enemies? will you fall down on a cloud while riding a bike in heaven and injure your knee? will you be able to complain to your friends in heaven "OUCH WTH I INJURED MY KNEEE!!!" it wouldn't be fun...being enemies with someone else for the ETERNITY that people have to spend after they die. and sad to say, it wouldn't be fun either...being friends with someone for eternity. because both parties wouldn't really treasure each other. won't heaven/hell/whatever i listed out above besides kallang river be too crowded and stuffy when so many people keep entering it but don't leave it? i dunno...maybe its really just my childish thinking. but since i always believe in balance, if there's a place for people to end at...there should also be a place for people to start at, and it shouldn't be the same place...(just like heaven and hell aren't the same place) sorry i'm probably offending alot of people here. :X (ducks behind a tree and realises i'm phatter)
okay gonna do some practising and mugging now! :D 80 pages of geog, i can do it!!! \(>A<)/
P.S. i don't use LOL cos it sounds unsincere, like you're not really laughing hahaha xD
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 5:36 pm.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
kandou shita.
wahhah i'm gonna flop soon~ (drops onto bed and falls asleep)
80pages of geog in 2 days...just had 3 chapters of bio test. SYF is really draining me to the very limits.
wait, what falling asleep. i don't have time for that...i want my free time T.T
SYF.gwh.BIO+GEOG+5OTHERTESTS.allkillingme.byebyedon'tmissme.
why's it that one man's happiness is always on another's downfall. now i gotta help you guys speak to OCC tomorrow. those that put in effort, it'll pay off somehow dont' worry. and for those who got kicked out because they don't really put in any effort...well just learn a lesson and move on. being a senior really tires me.
and to those going to the hamamatsu trip thinking its just all fun...be more responsible okay T.T mayshuen, sheen, kitchong, and I are organising this so that we can have more bonding activities together, so don't take it for granted and do your part well yeah?
the times when life gets tiring.
p.s. to sempai: hope you get well soon! :3
jyaaa, ne! <3
wahhah i'm gonna flop soon~ (drops onto bed and falls asleep)
80pages of geog in 2 days...just had 3 chapters of bio test. SYF is really draining me to the very limits.
wait, what falling asleep. i don't have time for that...i want my free time T.T
SYF.gwh.BIO+GEOG+5OTHERTESTS.allkillingme.byebyedon'tmissme.
why's it that one man's happiness is always on another's downfall. now i gotta help you guys speak to OCC tomorrow. those that put in effort, it'll pay off somehow dont' worry. and for those who got kicked out because they don't really put in any effort...well just learn a lesson and move on. being a senior really tires me.
and to those going to the hamamatsu trip thinking its just all fun...be more responsible okay T.T mayshuen, sheen, kitchong, and I are organising this so that we can have more bonding activities together, so don't take it for granted and do your part well yeah?
the times when life gets tiring.
p.s. to sempai: hope you get well soon! :3
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:46 pm.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
SO MUCH WORK EET EEES KEELING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
(bangs head on tabletop)
boohoohoo.
bleh.
w.
本人累坏了。
(bangs head on tabletop)
boohoohoo.
bleh.
w.
本人累坏了。
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:24 pm.
Friday, April 03, 2009
時間を渡すと、君との距離がもっともっと遠くなった。
真逆、去年初めて二人が知り合った事は偶然の一致だけなの。
本当にそうなら・・・そうなら、今からはもうそんなに近くなりたくない。
君も知ってるんでしょう。継づければ・・・別れの苦しみが処理できる訳が、な
いと思うけれど。真実は水としてしてるから、
今まで、アリガトウ!(悲しい)泣きたいなあ。
saying goodbye has never been easy for a human.
ウェンチェンは:
☑最初からやり直したい。
☑誰かに打ち明けたい。
☑やりたい事をできたい。
immers is officially OBAAAAA T___T played a 3/2 hour basketball match with yumi, mayshuen, celeste, jamie, vernice, norika! hardcored the whole event till i almost flopped during cca, but it was really fun!!! >u< and apparantly yumi did 2km in 8 minutes when she was in primary school Q_Q sugee yatterun jyan.
(opens mep room door and sees entire orchestra staring bemusedly at me)
(yeah?)
(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!) orchestra bursts into peals of laughter.
(...neee? :D?)
(what happened? xD) points to my really really really red face. >3<
(oops :X)
something i realised...
i have to solve this kinda stuff ON MY OWN. yes, i can do it. c'mon, be strong!
jyaaa, ne! <3
真逆、去年初めて二人が知り合った事は偶然の一致だけなの。
本当にそうなら・・・そうなら、今からはもうそんなに近くなりたくない。
君も知ってるんでしょう。継づければ・・・別れの苦しみが処理できる訳が、な
いと思うけれど。真実は水としてしてるから、
今まで、アリガトウ!(悲しい)泣きたいなあ。
saying goodbye has never been easy for a human.
ウェンチェンは:
☑最初からやり直したい。
☑誰かに打ち明けたい。
☑やりたい事をできたい。
immers is officially OBAAAAA T___T played a 3/2 hour basketball match with yumi, mayshuen, celeste, jamie, vernice, norika! hardcored the whole event till i almost flopped during cca, but it was really fun!!! >u< and apparantly yumi did 2km in 8 minutes when she was in primary school Q_Q sugee yatterun jyan.
(opens mep room door and sees entire orchestra staring bemusedly at me)
(yeah?)
(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!) orchestra bursts into peals of laughter.
(...neee? :D?)
(what happened? xD) points to my really really really red face. >3<
(oops :X)
something i realised...
i have to solve this kinda stuff ON MY OWN. yes, i can do it. c'mon, be strong!
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:20 pm.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
WHOOHOOOOOOOOOO #300!!!
this blog sure is some INSIGHT (grins) :D
toradora I AM TIRED DDD: rawrrr.
助けた時の暖かさ。
助けた時の優しさ。
助けた時の嬉しさ。
その瞬間の一番基本の気持ちは、只上よりも簡単でしょう。
良い作品は、難しくて読み難くなくて・・・
心から放射するの一番正直な気持ちなんだと思う。
っていうか、自己反省をするのが。
anything with the word "bonding" is fun :DDD covalent bonding, ionic bonding...(hahaha no just kidding xD)
local immers was kinda fun :D besides having to stand and talk for 1 hour :X yumi and norika, mata ashitaaa! >u<
they're fourteen, but when i talk to them, i feel so immature :3 hahaha, wengchen's gotta stop being so ba**ish! xD uzai! :P
i'll never find a love like this~~~ <3
oh made a new friend todayyy! >u< yayyy! :D its a LD junior, Jamieee;)
managed to fool someone that i was ___ hahaha! xD
to think 3J wanted to switch classes with 3D :DDD awww but anyhow they wouldn't :X
hahaha, too tired to blog about anything else :D
there are 7 movies i wanna watch :X
confessions of a shopaholic
shinjuku incident
handsome suit
the one kakkoi kenichi is acting in (i forgot the name)]
heaven's door
bridal wars
hotel for dogs
and THEY'RE ALL OUT OR GONE ALREADYYY DDDDDDDDD:
help, someone clean up this mess of melted mireille on the floor.
oh btw if you ask me in what perspective i look at people...you'd think i was retarded xD cos to me, everyone looks like a teddy bear >u< different teddies have different personalities, but they're all very cute! <3 even evil teddies, and emo teddies, zenbu kawaii yo! :3
okay gonna mug for matrices now, i don't wanna get ___ anymore!!!
jyaaa, ne! <3
this blog sure is some INSIGHT (grins) :D
toradora I AM TIRED DDD: rawrrr.
助けた時の暖かさ。
助けた時の優しさ。
助けた時の嬉しさ。
その瞬間の一番基本の気持ちは、只上よりも簡単でしょう。
良い作品は、難しくて読み難くなくて・・・
心から放射するの一番正直な気持ちなんだと思う。
っていうか、自己反省をするのが。
anything with the word "bonding" is fun :DDD covalent bonding, ionic bonding...(hahaha no just kidding xD)
local immers was kinda fun :D besides having to stand and talk for 1 hour :X yumi and norika, mata ashitaaa! >u<
they're fourteen, but when i talk to them, i feel so immature :3 hahaha, wengchen's gotta stop being so ba**ish! xD uzai! :P
i'll never find a love like this~~~ <3
oh made a new friend todayyy! >u< yayyy! :D its a LD junior, Jamieee;)
managed to fool someone that i was ___ hahaha! xD
to think 3J wanted to switch classes with 3D :DDD awww but anyhow they wouldn't :X
hahaha, too tired to blog about anything else :D
there are 7 movies i wanna watch :X
confessions of a shopaholic
shinjuku incident
handsome suit
the one kakkoi kenichi is acting in (i forgot the name)]
heaven's door
bridal wars
hotel for dogs
and THEY'RE ALL OUT OR GONE ALREADYYY DDDDDDDDD:
help, someone clean up this mess of melted mireille on the floor.
oh btw if you ask me in what perspective i look at people...you'd think i was retarded xD cos to me, everyone looks like a teddy bear >u< different teddies have different personalities, but they're all very cute! <3 even evil teddies, and emo teddies, zenbu kawaii yo! :3
okay gonna mug for matrices now, i don't wanna get ___ anymore!!!
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:46 pm.
