Tuesday, June 30, 2009
NUMBER FOUR.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:13 pm.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
why is there school on monday. :(((( yadadei!!
japan randomness goes on again. i think japanese lessons should have regular excursions to places like the JAS library or the JSS to interact with students cos its much more.. worthwhile that way.
i suddenly thought of melon pan. umasouu T____T
hahahaha shan&tyler=super funny.
kondo no nichiyoubi oainishimasenka.(hint: you cant say no.)
japan randomness goes on again. i think japanese lessons should have regular excursions to places like the JAS library or the JSS to interact with students cos its much more.. worthwhile that way.
i suddenly thought of melon pan. umasouu T____T
hahahaha shan&tyler=super funny.
kondo no nichiyoubi oainishimasenka.(hint: you cant say no.)
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 12:55 am.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
TODAY WAS FUN.
(omg there's holiday homework?!?!)
(omg there's holiday homework?!?!)
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:10 pm.
Friday, June 26, 2009
OMG NICE NICEEEE.
just spammed two hours of japanese talk shows yesterday. i'm really going crazy muahaha.
anyway, i think japan has the nicest fake and real spectacles ever. Fake meaning just for fashion w/o lenses and real meaning HAHA real. They're reaaally pretty, there's bright red and black thick-framed ones. DAISU(TE)KI.
i've always wanted to host an entertainment japanese show. I'll get to meet lots of crazy people and force them to do crazy stuff. i wantt :(
hoho some of you may be dreading to see this but others like me would love it.
i took this picture when i was in secondary 1. actually really really like to walk down that long long pavement. Every step i take is a step nearer to my goal and my passion of learning japanese. Its just unbelievable how much japanese i've managed to learn in a short span of 3 years so far. Breath-taking. haha.
jap lessons resume on mondayy! (rubs hands in glee)
(わくわく) >u< 日本語って、最高でしょう。でしょう?
giving Ismail his belated birthday present ;D (hoping you wont read this)
故里に錦を飾る.
成田空港へ行きなりたい。
i remember when i had my first japanese oral exam, the teacher asked me "将来、なににないたいと思いますか。”
”声優になりたいと思っています。”
teacher: (stunned) "す…凄い。”
dream. japanese people earn alot of $$. $__$ i watched a video where aya hirano worked at a fast food restaurant for just 4 hours and she earned a whooping 5200￥ its $80 Sing dollars omg. fast food workers earn more than businessmen in Singapore haha. if the wages here were just as high people would be auctioning to work at macdonalds xD
you make me happy when skies are grey.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 1:48 pm.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
日本テレビのニュースってどこよりもずっと面白いんだね。
意欲か条件？宮崎県政の出馬要请？反対党か自民党？政府の間違ったスピーチ？
あなたにはそんなに面白くないと思うけど本当に熱中できる事です。
そして、めちゃ人気持ってるベッキ（芸能界ではベキ子と言う日本アメリカ人女優）は暫く演技のを止まれて、歌手界に入る積もりでニコニコ笑ったり自分はやっと小さい頃から気にする欲望事を満足していると言った。番組を見る中、色々な凄い政治とかについてのニュースが放送されたよ。その中には、名前がぱっと忘れちゃったけどその政府に入ってる男はさ、議会で政治のスピーチを話したままに一人ずつの報告者は「もうしわけございませんが、言葉がまちがえていらっしゃいましたわ。」ひそひそと遣り難いに言って、男はちょっと年長なので「へええ！嘘や！」の代わりに「ああ…そうか。そうか？間違ったか？」と自分の偉いさに「愚かな！」と笑ちゃって続けた。シンガポールではあんな事が発生しなかっただもな！
もう一つの面白いニュースは、最近の議会争论には新聞記者は「そのことについてのお感じは？」と言ってくれてると、政府内の人は睨み付けて、「あほらしい。」と答えたと、邪悪みたいな「チェッ、チッ」がした。
日本の政界はやっぱり込み入ったと思うと、是非機会と時間があったら政治学を勉強したいと思っています。
あなたは、新しい店が開店する時、一番乗りをする為、夜明けに起きたことがありますか。あなたは、「無料」という言葉を聞くと、心臓がどきどきしませんか。あなたは、食べ放題の店で、目の前にある食べ物を、自分おさらに山盛りにしてしまう事はありませんか。このような例では、キアスは時々には只の我儘とか、自己中心的な性格に見える時もあります。
日本語の熱情がありますか。rock&roll!
i was rewatching the video on hirano aya then i saw a comment that said
「普通にしゃべｒとこんな感じ」
ってウソじゃん・・・。
他のビデオで高くない声で普通に喋るじゃん・・・
まぁいいけどねぇ～
anata wa dou omou no? ;D
意欲か条件？宮崎県政の出馬要请？反対党か自民党？政府の間違ったスピーチ？
あなたにはそんなに面白くないと思うけど本当に熱中できる事です。
そして、めちゃ人気持ってるベッキ（芸能界ではベキ子と言う日本アメリカ人女優）は暫く演技のを止まれて、歌手界に入る積もりでニコニコ笑ったり自分はやっと小さい頃から気にする欲望事を満足していると言った。番組を見る中、色々な凄い政治とかについてのニュースが放送されたよ。その中には、名前がぱっと忘れちゃったけどその政府に入ってる男はさ、議会で政治のスピーチを話したままに一人ずつの報告者は「もうしわけございませんが、言葉がまちがえていらっしゃいましたわ。」ひそひそと遣り難いに言って、男はちょっと年長なので「へええ！嘘や！」の代わりに「ああ…そうか。そうか？間違ったか？」と自分の偉いさに「愚かな！」と笑ちゃって続けた。シンガポールではあんな事が発生しなかっただもな！
もう一つの面白いニュースは、最近の議会争论には新聞記者は「そのことについてのお感じは？」と言ってくれてると、政府内の人は睨み付けて、「あほらしい。」と答えたと、邪悪みたいな「チェッ、チッ」がした。
日本の政界はやっぱり込み入ったと思うと、是非機会と時間があったら政治学を勉強したいと思っています。
あなたは、新しい店が開店する時、一番乗りをする為、夜明けに起きたことがありますか。あなたは、「無料」という言葉を聞くと、心臓がどきどきしませんか。あなたは、食べ放題の店で、目の前にある食べ物を、自分おさらに山盛りにしてしまう事はありませんか。このような例では、キアスは時々には只の我儘とか、自己中心的な性格に見える時もあります。
日本語の熱情がありますか。rock&roll!
i was rewatching the video on hirano aya then i saw a comment that said
「普通にしゃべｒとこんな感じ」
ってウソじゃん・・・。
他のビデオで高くない声で普通に喋るじゃん・・・
まぁいいけどねぇ～
anata wa dou omou no? ;D
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 5:02 pm.
everyone's getting so worked up over korean stars, korean everything.
screaming their frantic heads off at the 4-lettered word. (i mean DBSK XD)
but i'm convinced that this is just a small wave that'll wash away in no time. Yes. in no time, maybe a span of months or weeks or even days, people will grow to realise:
"why do all my korean idols look the same?"
"they went to the same surgeon."
i'm okay with korean stuff. but i dont see why people must go CRAZY over them. people who desperately yearn to learn Korean and find a handsome korean guy(which sadly, doesnt really exist in Korea besides all the actors), force themselves to eat kimchi even when they dont like it...then when the craze dies down, they quit korean lessons. they throw their kimchi away.
you should only learn something for the sake of nurturing a pure interest in that subject without external dependent factors like "because my favourite actor is korean so i will learn korean. when he is old and ugly, i will stop learning korean." If you're not that type, then i strongly encourage you to go crazy over the language, and the part of the country(unless you love North Korea as well)
i'm sure this probably angers alot of avid korean fans, who will nevertheless rebutt me with:
"Then why're you so crazy over Japan? Its the same thing."
i'm not crazy over Japan either. I have a pure interest of the language and I think that most japanese guys look like women. I dont want to stay in japan because the competition there is harsh. People are allowed to pee on the streets. Kids slit each other's thighs and one of them even chopped his mother's head off, planted it into a flower pot and brought it to the police station. The girls there aren't very pretty but they put on lots of makeup so they're gorgeously pretty. When i went to Japan, there wasn't a single ugly girl. Even overweight girls look super "moeeee!" kawaii due to the layers and layers of make-up they put on. Despite all of this, I LOVE JAPAN. its not because of the entertainment industry or the food or anything, but because i like the language and the culture. Would you, a blind korean enthusiast be able to say the same thing about your interest? I think when the wave is over, i'll see alot of korean junk piled in trash cans. And i'm sure Koreans would be cursing such people for doing such a thing to their culture. If Korea didn't have an entertainment industry in their country, would you still like korea? or would you just treat it like some other patch on the globe. I would still like Japan. Even if nothing is left in that country one day, i would still go there to fish.
I think i'm one of the only girls in my school who hasnt watched the Korean Version of "Boys before Flowers". Its not because i hate korea(which i dont, because i love the food and the place), but simply because i dont have the time to and i only support originals. Almost all of Taiwan's dramas are taken from Japanese Manga, anime or dramas. Now that Korea's also doing the same, i feel that supporting the originals aka the japanese versions, would be very helpful to the people who created the very ideas. Japan can't sue Korea or Taiwan for ripping their shows due to reasons like 1)they changed the name of the show and called it their own 2)it helps to spread the show around the globe, regardless of whether it is the original.
but then again, Korea and Taiwan are not dumb in doing so, after you watch failure series again and again from Mediacorp. I dont see people going crazy over Mediacorp actresses and actors or shows. The Little Nonya craze is .__. gone.
People should open their eyes when they do things.
screaming their frantic heads off at the 4-lettered word. (i mean DBSK XD)
but i'm convinced that this is just a small wave that'll wash away in no time. Yes. in no time, maybe a span of months or weeks or even days, people will grow to realise:
"why do all my korean idols look the same?"
"they went to the same surgeon."
i'm okay with korean stuff. but i dont see why people must go CRAZY over them. people who desperately yearn to learn Korean and find a handsome korean guy(which sadly, doesnt really exist in Korea besides all the actors), force themselves to eat kimchi even when they dont like it...then when the craze dies down, they quit korean lessons. they throw their kimchi away.
you should only learn something for the sake of nurturing a pure interest in that subject without external dependent factors like "because my favourite actor is korean so i will learn korean. when he is old and ugly, i will stop learning korean." If you're not that type, then i strongly encourage you to go crazy over the language, and the part of the country(unless you love North Korea as well)
i'm sure this probably angers alot of avid korean fans, who will nevertheless rebutt me with:
"Then why're you so crazy over Japan? Its the same thing."
i'm not crazy over Japan either. I have a pure interest of the language and I think that most japanese guys look like women. I dont want to stay in japan because the competition there is harsh. People are allowed to pee on the streets. Kids slit each other's thighs and one of them even chopped his mother's head off, planted it into a flower pot and brought it to the police station. The girls there aren't very pretty but they put on lots of makeup so they're gorgeously pretty. When i went to Japan, there wasn't a single ugly girl. Even overweight girls look super "moeeee!" kawaii due to the layers and layers of make-up they put on. Despite all of this, I LOVE JAPAN. its not because of the entertainment industry or the food or anything, but because i like the language and the culture. Would you, a blind korean enthusiast be able to say the same thing about your interest? I think when the wave is over, i'll see alot of korean junk piled in trash cans. And i'm sure Koreans would be cursing such people for doing such a thing to their culture. If Korea didn't have an entertainment industry in their country, would you still like korea? or would you just treat it like some other patch on the globe. I would still like Japan. Even if nothing is left in that country one day, i would still go there to fish.
I think i'm one of the only girls in my school who hasnt watched the Korean Version of "Boys before Flowers". Its not because i hate korea(which i dont, because i love the food and the place), but simply because i dont have the time to and i only support originals. Almost all of Taiwan's dramas are taken from Japanese Manga, anime or dramas. Now that Korea's also doing the same, i feel that supporting the originals aka the japanese versions, would be very helpful to the people who created the very ideas. Japan can't sue Korea or Taiwan for ripping their shows due to reasons like 1)they changed the name of the show and called it their own 2)it helps to spread the show around the globe, regardless of whether it is the original.
but then again, Korea and Taiwan are not dumb in doing so, after you watch failure series again and again from Mediacorp. I dont see people going crazy over Mediacorp actresses and actors or shows. The Little Nonya craze is .__. gone.
People should open their eyes when they do things.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 2:43 pm.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
PUNS. プンプンー！>u< thanks to kit xD anyway most of them are from last year's JSC.
1.私達の好きな酒はWe好き-
2.神社でジンジャエール飲むオジンじゃ
3.台所はキッチンとしよう
4.「君んち運送屋？」「うん、そうや」
5.「あれっ、用紙がないよ。どこいっちゃったかな」
「用紙なら向こうですよ」
「えっ、向こうってどこ？」
「婿養子（向こう用紙）」
6. タクシーに乗る時、助手席に座る人って少数派だよね。
「前乗りてー！ 」
1.私達の好きな酒はWe好き-
2.神社でジンジャエール飲むオジンじゃ
3.台所はキッチンとしよう
4.「君んち運送屋？」「うん、そうや」
5.「あれっ、用紙がないよ。どこいっちゃったかな」
「用紙なら向こうですよ」
「えっ、向こうってどこ？」
「婿養子（向こう用紙）」
6. タクシーに乗る時、助手席に座る人って少数派だよね。
「前乗りてー！ 」
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:56 pm.
i dont wanna close my eyes...
i dont wanna fall asleep cos i miss you babe and i dont wanna miss a thing.
i miss you alot.
i really dont know what to do without isab and aunt Sally. their house is my second home haha. seriously. they're the nicest people in the world. :) <3 thank you. 回娘家了！
omg i'm so tired .__. spent 2 hours doing housework. then when i went to mount alvernia again, i thought i caught H1N1. i dont know, i went near the emergency room then i saw this piece of paper pasted there "DANGER. INFLUENZA A" then i went to the toilet right next to the emergency room. :( then the worst thing was i suddenly kept sneezing. scaryy.
doing housework again later. oh well i can do it YEAHHHH :D
i dont wanna fall asleep cos i miss you babe and i dont wanna miss a thing.
i miss you alot.
i really dont know what to do without isab and aunt Sally. their house is my second home haha. seriously. they're the nicest people in the world. :) <3 thank you. 回娘家了！
omg i'm so tired .__. spent 2 hours doing housework. then when i went to mount alvernia again, i thought i caught H1N1. i dont know, i went near the emergency room then i saw this piece of paper pasted there "DANGER. INFLUENZA A" then i went to the toilet right next to the emergency room. :( then the worst thing was i suddenly kept sneezing. scaryy.
doing housework again later. oh well i can do it YEAHHHH :D
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:25 pm.
今日は、「もえええ!」スキームのＤ２！わっしょい、がばれよっ！
幾らしても♭か♯な声が出すの。０.Ｋでも駄目でっす。
いまさら悲しいだったらいいんでしょう。
いまさら自分の表せたい気持ちをすればいいんでしょう。
一人で食べごとテレビ見るごとにも、２４・７誰にもうちにいないからね。あたしにも信じられないけど、本当だよ。だからもう…いやな感じをしないで。
悲しい。ポイニョウ～♪
マタマタ駄洒落(だじゃれ）の練習してる。
「キアス的な国は、きゃあー!素敵!」
「無理」を言えばいけないんだって。でもやっぱり練習中にきづいた事は全然あたしっぽいでない。楽観的な人は嬉しくて、実際に気持ちを出せる人だと思わない。でも必ず今の苦い奴でもない。平衡的に二つの気持ちを反映される人は、競争性な国では珍しい。
お姉ちゃん、早く元気になれば。（嘆く）さみしいなあ。
部ログしても自分に気持ち悪い。話したくないきゃ、寝ます。
おやちゅみー☆
幾らしても♭か♯な声が出すの。０.Ｋでも駄目でっす。
いまさら悲しいだったらいいんでしょう。
いまさら自分の表せたい気持ちをすればいいんでしょう。
一人で食べごとテレビ見るごとにも、２４・７誰にもうちにいないからね。あたしにも信じられないけど、本当だよ。だからもう…いやな感じをしないで。
悲しい。ポイニョウ～♪
マタマタ駄洒落(だじゃれ）の練習してる。
「キアス的な国は、きゃあー!素敵!」
「無理」を言えばいけないんだって。でもやっぱり練習中にきづいた事は全然あたしっぽいでない。楽観的な人は嬉しくて、実際に気持ちを出せる人だと思わない。でも必ず今の苦い奴でもない。平衡的に二つの気持ちを反映される人は、競争性な国では珍しい。
お姉ちゃん、早く元気になれば。（嘆く）さみしいなあ。
部ログしても自分に気持ち悪い。話したくないきゃ、寝ます。
おやちゅみー☆
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 12:53 am.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I. HAVE. TO SPEAK. MOEEEE.(no not ministry of education =.=)
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
speak like this. come on, i can do it. infront of 100 people, its really easy.
yeah right.
aya hirano. i have two weeks to become you.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
speak like this. come on, i can do it. infront of 100 people, its really easy.
yeah right.
aya hirano. i have two weeks to become you.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:35 pm.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
since many people keep telling me "why're you so emo?" "be strong, be happy, be all sorts of crap" after reading my blogposts, i shall post one SUPER HAPPY blogpost smacked in your faces to read. let me clarify something. a blog is for me to write whatever i want to write, not for you to judge me. when i dont feel like blogging, i dont blog. when i feel like blogging, a long post appears. when i'm angry or agitated, all my rants are written here. if people think they totally understand me inside out just by reading my blogposts, i dont think i'm going to blog anymore. or i'll make it a private one, just for myself to read and preserve my memories. okay lets start.
went to mizu's house to do finish my props(a hello kitty, a packet of tissue and some colourful cardboard). i bought cake with isab! :D wait i think i'll redo this post in chronological order.
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went out with isab! :D first day to study, second to play. First day, we went to amk library, only to find out the entire library was filled to the brim with a colloseum of people-like-us. So we headed towards bishan library, which wasnt any better and to the downside worse, due to some toddlers screaming their heads off and running up and down the aisle, immigrants(from you-know-where) chattering loudly in their colloquial despite the overhead announcements of "in order to make the library a conducive environment, please do not talk loudly or run up and down the aisle" played every single minute. My head almost erupted. but we managed to complete quite an amount of work before we happily left for j8 to get yami yoghurt. :D then i went to buy correction tape, walked around j8, etc. end of day1.
On the second day, we went to cathay cineleisure to watch hannah montana. its really nice despite what many people think the moment "miley cyrus" rings in their ears. I like the climb. and sweet popcorn haha. after the movie, we went to grab lunch, since both of us werent very hungry, i bought an auntie anne's pretzel and isabelle bought takoyaki. oishi! went to art friend to get a gigantic piece of cardboard(hahahaha poor isab!) its...air resistant and manouvre-unfriendly xD then i got hungry again :D so we went to eat seconds. i ate takoyaki and isab ate taiyaki. the highlight of the trip was organic fruit juice. XP there was a stall selling fruit juice that tastes just...wonderful. for experiment's sake, i chose carrot-celery juice and isab chose grapefruit smoothie. mine tasted like tomato sauce and hers tasted like raw lemon. HAHA :D "ya bought it! xD" "for the sake of 2 dollars."
next stop: mizukawa's house
got treated to lemon jelly! >u< made by miss mizu. i brought cake for keikun, chiyo and kotti. did jsc stuff, like working on pronounciation. the word "ふ" is very hard to pronounce. you're not supposed to use your teeth to pronounce the "ffff" sound. you're supposed to blow it. went to the front of their condo with miss mizu to wait for kotoe and keisaku's school bus. of which two other japanese housewives bombarded me. TuT
miss mizu: 彼女はシンガポール人の友達です。
1st housewife: へええ！さき家の前で見たけど日本人だと思ったのに！
2nd housewife: へええ！
me: ...
1st housewife:(translated) my friend has a girl going to the JSC as well but she never opens her mouth :X you're really lucky, she's so smart! :D
me: ...
2nd housewife:日本語プラプラ！凄い！！
me: (smiles)ありがとう。
housewives: "ありがとう"もペラペラ！！！！>u<
me: ...xD
2nd housewife: 学校のくらぶ活動は?
me: オケストラ。ビオリンを弾くのです。
all three people: (screams) SUGOIIIIIIIII!!!!
then they started gossiping about mooncake. xD its very interesting to hear japanese housewives gossip, they always talk about stuff that interests you and the way they talk is very nice to hear. unlike the singaporean aunties that i had to bear with everyday after school at gateB when i was in primary school. :/ they talk in a rather rude and undiscreet manner xD and i dont like they way they just shoot hokkien at each other in a ruth and barbaric manner.
kotoe started crying the moment she hopped off the school bus .__. but i held her hand and walked back to the house, then the kid of the 1st housewife turned behind and stared at me.
1st housewife: 彼女ってシンガポール人だよ！日本語が話せるよ！
boy: 彼女シンガポール人じゃねよ！
if there's a word to describe happiness, i would've screamed it in his face. both his mom and him mistook me for a 日本人. i wonder...
then we made props and considered the 音调 of different parts of the speech. and i'm going to end with something very stupid. stay tuned. :D 黄色声kiirokoe。its japanese but its not perverted like what it sounds xD it just means someone talking at a very high and enthralled manner. like "きゃああああ！" how those moes talk. then as the colour gets duller, (yellow being the brightest), the sound level gets lower. nihongo. suteki. then all the boring parts...then i left at 7.30pm. oh yeah, something else that made me happy.
ochiyo: ウェンチェンさんって、いい感じ。
mizusensei: うん、いい子だよ。そんなに素直で優しいね。
*faints from dizzy happiness.
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went to raffles city to shop today. alot of nice stuff but they all cost a bomb. i bought a blouse and minishorts for...undisclosed xD its really expensive and not worth. missselfridge is omg. i wont ever go to that store again. :/
tried this weird organic avocado smoothie thats surprisingly delish :DDDD i drink all sorts of weird stuff heh.
then after that, i went to missselfridge's to buy my clothes. cost more than my lifesavings D: and the owner's like "please come again!" .__. i changed into the clothes to show my dad who was waiting outside the changing room.
*goes out of changing room
lady waiting for an available changing room: (stares) omg. きれい! (ego bubble appears)
passers-by: きれい!!!!(ego bubble inflates)
dad: eh. makes you look damn short la. (ego bubble bursts)
me: RAWR. dad.
then i went into this mens' clothes shop to buy a shirt for my dad for fathers' day...
me:(looks through shirts looking for a bright red one)
storekeeper: hi, may i help you?
me: no.
*after awhile.
me: sorry. this is XS?
storekeeper: erm, how tall is your boyfriend?
me: its for my dad.
storekeeper: (humiliated) oh. sorry ha.
hahahaha lots of strange things happened today. but it was fun :D i'm going to be depressed when the holidays're over. noooo. better enjoy it while it lasts. :)
went to mizu's house to do finish my props(a hello kitty, a packet of tissue and some colourful cardboard). i bought cake with isab! :D wait i think i'll redo this post in chronological order.
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went out with isab! :D first day to study, second to play. First day, we went to amk library, only to find out the entire library was filled to the brim with a colloseum of people-like-us. So we headed towards bishan library, which wasnt any better and to the downside worse, due to some toddlers screaming their heads off and running up and down the aisle, immigrants(from you-know-where) chattering loudly in their colloquial despite the overhead announcements of "in order to make the library a conducive environment, please do not talk loudly or run up and down the aisle" played every single minute. My head almost erupted. but we managed to complete quite an amount of work before we happily left for j8 to get yami yoghurt. :D then i went to buy correction tape, walked around j8, etc. end of day1.
On the second day, we went to cathay cineleisure to watch hannah montana. its really nice despite what many people think the moment "miley cyrus" rings in their ears. I like the climb. and sweet popcorn haha. after the movie, we went to grab lunch, since both of us werent very hungry, i bought an auntie anne's pretzel and isabelle bought takoyaki. oishi! went to art friend to get a gigantic piece of cardboard(hahahaha poor isab!) its...air resistant and manouvre-unfriendly xD then i got hungry again :D so we went to eat seconds. i ate takoyaki and isab ate taiyaki. the highlight of the trip was organic fruit juice. XP there was a stall selling fruit juice that tastes just...wonderful. for experiment's sake, i chose carrot-celery juice and isab chose grapefruit smoothie. mine tasted like tomato sauce and hers tasted like raw lemon. HAHA :D "ya bought it! xD" "for the sake of 2 dollars."
next stop: mizukawa's house
got treated to lemon jelly! >u< made by miss mizu. i brought cake for keikun, chiyo and kotti. did jsc stuff, like working on pronounciation. the word "ふ" is very hard to pronounce. you're not supposed to use your teeth to pronounce the "ffff" sound. you're supposed to blow it. went to the front of their condo with miss mizu to wait for kotoe and keisaku's school bus. of which two other japanese housewives bombarded me. TuT
miss mizu: 彼女はシンガポール人の友達です。
1st housewife: へええ！さき家の前で見たけど日本人だと思ったのに！
2nd housewife: へええ！
me: ...
1st housewife:(translated) my friend has a girl going to the JSC as well but she never opens her mouth :X you're really lucky, she's so smart! :D
me: ...
2nd housewife:日本語プラプラ！凄い！！
me: (smiles)ありがとう。
housewives: "ありがとう"もペラペラ！！！！>u<
me: ...xD
2nd housewife: 学校のくらぶ活動は?
me: オケストラ。ビオリンを弾くのです。
all three people: (screams) SUGOIIIIIIIII!!!!
then they started gossiping about mooncake. xD its very interesting to hear japanese housewives gossip, they always talk about stuff that interests you and the way they talk is very nice to hear. unlike the singaporean aunties that i had to bear with everyday after school at gateB when i was in primary school. :/ they talk in a rather rude and undiscreet manner xD and i dont like they way they just shoot hokkien at each other in a ruth and barbaric manner.
kotoe started crying the moment she hopped off the school bus .__. but i held her hand and walked back to the house, then the kid of the 1st housewife turned behind and stared at me.
1st housewife: 彼女ってシンガポール人だよ！日本語が話せるよ！
boy: 彼女シンガポール人じゃねよ！
if there's a word to describe happiness, i would've screamed it in his face. both his mom and him mistook me for a 日本人. i wonder...
then we made props and considered the 音调 of different parts of the speech. and i'm going to end with something very stupid. stay tuned. :D 黄色声kiirokoe。its japanese but its not perverted like what it sounds xD it just means someone talking at a very high and enthralled manner. like "きゃああああ！" how those moes talk. then as the colour gets duller, (yellow being the brightest), the sound level gets lower. nihongo. suteki. then all the boring parts...then i left at 7.30pm. oh yeah, something else that made me happy.
ochiyo: ウェンチェンさんって、いい感じ。
mizusensei: うん、いい子だよ。そんなに素直で優しいね。
*faints from dizzy happiness.
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went to raffles city to shop today. alot of nice stuff but they all cost a bomb. i bought a blouse and minishorts for...undisclosed xD its really expensive and not worth. missselfridge is omg. i wont ever go to that store again. :/
tried this weird organic avocado smoothie thats surprisingly delish :DDDD i drink all sorts of weird stuff heh.
then after that, i went to missselfridge's to buy my clothes. cost more than my lifesavings D: and the owner's like "please come again!" .__. i changed into the clothes to show my dad who was waiting outside the changing room.
*goes out of changing room
lady waiting for an available changing room: (stares) omg. きれい! (ego bubble appears)
passers-by: きれい!!!!(ego bubble inflates)
dad: eh. makes you look damn short la. (ego bubble bursts)
me: RAWR. dad.
then i went into this mens' clothes shop to buy a shirt for my dad for fathers' day...
me:(looks through shirts looking for a bright red one)
storekeeper: hi, may i help you?
me: no.
*after awhile.
me: sorry. this is XS?
storekeeper: erm, how tall is your boyfriend?
me: its for my dad.
storekeeper: (humiliated) oh. sorry ha.
hahahaha lots of strange things happened today. but it was fun :D i'm going to be depressed when the holidays're over. noooo. better enjoy it while it lasts. :)
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 12:50 pm.
Friday, June 19, 2009
i'm going to update very soon.
people think i'm emo to the max after seeing my posts. but since blogger's the one and only venting system i can use, i'll use it.
its gonna change. see ya. :)
people think i'm emo to the max after seeing my posts. but since blogger's the one and only venting system i can use, i'll use it.
its gonna change. see ya. :)
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:17 pm.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
went out with isabs today. yaaaaaaaaa! >u< <3
sugoku tanoshikatta. gotta chiong homework.
(i dont like it when people think i'm wrong and try to argue back :/. i dont like it when people think they understand me and try to bust my facts in my face when i obviously know myself better. and i dont like it when people go "err..." "okay...?" or make weird sound effects when other people are talking(which most of the retarded st.nicks girls do .__.) cos its not nice. i dont like it either when i tell someone something unfortunate that happened, and they just rebutt me like suddenly everything's my fault, like "dont blame him/her, its your fault" "its you, not anyone else." when i only need some consolation.)
TOKYO INTERNATIONAL SPEECH CONTEST 2010. yes i'm flying to tokyo. see ya there. :D
sugoku tanoshikatta. gotta chiong homework.
(i dont like it when people think i'm wrong and try to argue back :/. i dont like it when people think they understand me and try to bust my facts in my face when i obviously know myself better. and i dont like it when people go "err..." "okay...?" or make weird sound effects when other people are talking(which most of the retarded st.nicks girls do .__.) cos its not nice. i dont like it either when i tell someone something unfortunate that happened, and they just rebutt me like suddenly everything's my fault, like "dont blame him/her, its your fault" "its you, not anyone else." when i only need some consolation.)
TOKYO INTERNATIONAL SPEECH CONTEST 2010. yes i'm flying to tokyo. see ya there. :D
people being people-isabelle
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:03 pm.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
tactics.
saw jan and yingyin today. i'm so dead when school reopens haha.
i dont feel like blogging anymore, my dad discharged then my sister admits. do housework. do homework. chinese O levels. cca's out of my mind.
anyway was really glad when i finally had a chance to leave the house. and even happier when i could talk to kit.
if you're wondering why my blog's so dead when its the june holidays, its because everyone's preventing me from doing the things i want to do. :)
GM ON SECOND WEEK! O'S ON SECOND WEEK! JSC ON FIRST WEEK! may everything 一路顺风. peace.
i'm tired of all this nonsense. i want everything to just STOP. -wengchen.
タクティクス。
誰もきづかない不思議な場所。それがここにある、君の傍に。
耳を済ましたら聞こえるはず。君を呼んでいる、微かな声。
そう燦然世界の深い森のその奥で、誰か叫ぶよ、夜をこじ開けて、
騙りつがれてた真否の 場所が遠く見えるけどとても近いにいる。
人は知らぬまにそこを通り、何時か無意識の川に流す、
でも永遠があるきづいたなら君は飛べる。そして蘇る消えていた記憶。
捜しに行こう一つの答えを、それは夢ではないさ別の現実さ。
閉ざされて、開かれる。
いにしえの。永久の。
時間を止めてくれる。今やりたくなくてやらない事が一杯あるから。39.
you know what. i'm completing my 練習帳２ today. stress-reliever.
saw jan and yingyin today. i'm so dead when school reopens haha.
i dont feel like blogging anymore, my dad discharged then my sister admits. do housework. do homework. chinese O levels. cca's out of my mind.
anyway was really glad when i finally had a chance to leave the house. and even happier when i could talk to kit.
if you're wondering why my blog's so dead when its the june holidays, its because everyone's preventing me from doing the things i want to do. :)
GM ON SECOND WEEK! O'S ON SECOND WEEK! JSC ON FIRST WEEK! may everything 一路顺风. peace.
i'm tired of all this nonsense. i want everything to just STOP. -wengchen.
タクティクス。
誰もきづかない不思議な場所。それがここにある、君の傍に。
耳を済ましたら聞こえるはず。君を呼んでいる、微かな声。
そう燦然世界の深い森のその奥で、誰か叫ぶよ、夜をこじ開けて、
騙りつがれてた真否の 場所が遠く見えるけどとても近いにいる。
人は知らぬまにそこを通り、何時か無意識の川に流す、
でも永遠があるきづいたなら君は飛べる。そして蘇る消えていた記憶。
捜しに行こう一つの答えを、それは夢ではないさ別の現実さ。
閉ざされて、開かれる。
いにしえの。永久の。
時間を止めてくれる。今やりたくなくてやらない事が一杯あるから。39.
you know what. i'm completing my 練習帳２ today. stress-reliever.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:22 pm.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
父・・・痛いですか? T.T あなたの替りにこの痛さを持ちたい。
もう少しだけ...頑張って！
心配くらいにいつから知らないけど、分からずに泣き出しちゃったの。
dad...i love you alot.
please dont let anything happen to him...! T.T
-all the people i love...
もう少しだけ...頑張って！
心配くらいにいつから知らないけど、分からずに泣き出しちゃったの。
dad...i love you alot.
please dont let anything happen to him...! T.T
-all the people i love...
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 12:27 am.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
i dont like my feelings to be played by other people. i cant bring myself to believe anything that sounds like "i love you" anymore. its always just another trick to make me dependant on others. the people i loved have always left me. i wont love anyone, then nobody i love can leave me. makes sense. liar, cheater, why're people doing this to me!?
maybe when i'm much much older, i will find someone who really likes me :) but right now...the people i'm attached to are just a bunch of crude swindlers. like what my mother said today.
"you've learnt not to trust people so much. they always betray you."
"only your family members will truly love you. the working world...dont trust them."
"she's not coming back. dont give yourself false hope. she broke her promise."
"i'll always be by your side to protect you. i'm your friend." AND THEN YOU GUYS RUN AWAY WHEN I MOST NEED YOU T.T ITS ALWAYS THE SAME ISNT IT. NIGGERS. STOP LYING TO ME, REALLY. i'm not stupid, i cant stand it...dont play me. T.T what makes you think that slinking out of my life solves problems! what makes you think being friends for a short while, then giving me the cold shoulder, will still make us friends! what makes you think i'll be so magnanimous to forgive you when you lie to me about being great life-long friends then dumping me at one side like a plush...its not fun. game over. my heart's broken, you dont know it, but you're just secretly hoping that maybe i've forgiven you already. its because of all of you filthy liars, that has made me someone so cold inside. I dont want to have a really good friend. I dont want to have a crush, like anybody, or accept anyone's feelings cos they'll just leave me alone. i'm sure of it. STUPID PEOPLE WHO LEAVE ME ALONE AND RUN AWAY IN COWARDICE. mou...ai ga iranai no.
maybe when i'm much much older, i will find someone who really likes me :) but right now...the people i'm attached to are just a bunch of crude swindlers. like what my mother said today.
"you've learnt not to trust people so much. they always betray you."
"only your family members will truly love you. the working world...dont trust them."
"she's not coming back. dont give yourself false hope. she broke her promise."
"i'll always be by your side to protect you. i'm your friend." AND THEN YOU GUYS RUN AWAY WHEN I MOST NEED YOU T.T ITS ALWAYS THE SAME ISNT IT. NIGGERS. STOP LYING TO ME, REALLY. i'm not stupid, i cant stand it...dont play me. T.T what makes you think that slinking out of my life solves problems! what makes you think being friends for a short while, then giving me the cold shoulder, will still make us friends! what makes you think i'll be so magnanimous to forgive you when you lie to me about being great life-long friends then dumping me at one side like a plush...its not fun. game over. my heart's broken, you dont know it, but you're just secretly hoping that maybe i've forgiven you already. its because of all of you filthy liars, that has made me someone so cold inside. I dont want to have a really good friend. I dont want to have a crush, like anybody, or accept anyone's feelings cos they'll just leave me alone. i'm sure of it. STUPID PEOPLE WHO LEAVE ME ALONE AND RUN AWAY IN COWARDICE. mou...ai ga iranai no.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:10 pm.
Friday, June 12, 2009
i realise the government keeps promoting chinese. they think our chinese is tragic to the world's deepest end. and its true. but what about english? i actually think we need some more encouragement to speak good(understandable and internationally-accepted) english as well. they're just doing all they can to make us study chinese to profit Singapore in the current China-growing economy. Europe's current market has yet to be stablilised from the recent economic crises. But that said, Singaporeans themselves are not putting in much effort in their languages. everything seems to be MATH and SCIENCE oriented. because most Singaporeans study without using their brain(aka mugging), they can only do math and science. Subjects like English, Chinese, Literature, etc. are not memorisable and thus most people here are lousy in them. What is keeping us from using our brains to think? is it the way the education system has been improvised, into making people zombie-like and income-chasing despondents? Its a fact. that people who dont do well in Math and Sciences choose to be ostracised from the majority of the society. The typical "ah lians" and "ah bengs" are just a bunch of people who give up on studying properly because they think they're doing badly in their Studies. and thats not exactly true, because as long as you do badly in your Math and Sciences, you're considered doing badly in your STUDIES. studies as a whole, so even if they're doing acceptably fine in some subjects, the motivation to study is not there anymore. and worse still, when our language teachers are not good enough, they lose our interest in the language and we dont feel motivated to continue taking the subject anymore. I remember asking my english teacher about "Patrol", and she ended up explaining the word "Petrol" to me. Gasoline. and the reason why our native language teachers themselves are not good in the particular language(even if they're good, they're not as good as other countries') is because they lack the foundation in the language. How can they have a strong foundation when they were supposed to focus on Math and Science when they were studying anyway. I dont plan to let my future children study in Singapore. I've always thought that schools overseas provide wholistic education and are sincerly concerned in the welfare of the younger generation, giving them lots of opportunities to perform, divulge into what they are passionate in doing, and ample time to do things that interest them, while at the same time being able to focus on their studies. this is the sort of education that i want. i think if i saw my children mugging their heads off i'd get heartbroken. not saying we shouldnt study, but we should study with practicality, study because you like to learn new interesting things and not study because you want an O level or A level cert. a piece of paper. :X
i dont think i want to be that close to you anymore. not when you keep heck caring me, i mean when you say you're busy its all just excuses right?! you just dont want to waste your time hanging out with me...you'd rather be more popular and go out with a whole lot of people so that people'd think you're so pro. its seems that you always choose your reputation over your friends. Ever thought about my feelings? what you promised me, that you'd make some free time? thank you, i'm heartbroken.
i dont think i want to be that close to you anymore. not when you keep heck caring me, i mean when you say you're busy its all just excuses right?! you just dont want to waste your time hanging out with me...you'd rather be more popular and go out with a whole lot of people so that people'd think you're so pro. its seems that you always choose your reputation over your friends. Ever thought about my feelings? what you promised me, that you'd make some free time? thank you, i'm heartbroken.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:31 pm.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
i dont like it when people are blind. I cant stand it when what they see from their eyes isnt transported to their brains. D:< things like taking your own stand and not following others' blindly, looking at any situation in all perspectives, making use of everything in your surroundings, must all these be taught in schools as well? A brain that works durings tests and exams is not a brain.
no motivation to blog. and i'm not emoing.
no motivation to blog. and i'm not emoing.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 4:49 pm.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I DONT LIKE FEELING DUMB. i dont like the feeling of not being able to understand concepts. And i dont like it when things dont go the way they're supposed to.
Its all me. i'll prove that i'm smarter than my sister, just you wait and see.
i dont like it when the cca is blind. and i mean blind. i dont feel that attached. Passion requires motivation. maybe i need to show a more serious personality, people really dont take me seriously.
washoi-!
anyway, camp was a success, even though we met some unfortune along the way.
feeling quite crappy now, i think i'm just tired (yawwwns).
我从不相信说"惨"或"死"。就算你把全部的测验，甚至考试弄得乱七八糟地不及格，
心里的世界末日不会把你冲走，只会戴你到"明天"的到来。那倒是，说"死"的人总
还未去世嘛。什么东西都会有补救的机会。同样地，任何事情都会有一个新的开始。
-wengchen
i hate getting screamed at by someone who doesnt understand me.
Sayonara.
Its all me. i'll prove that i'm smarter than my sister, just you wait and see.
washoi-!
anyway, camp was a success, even though we met some unfortune along the way.
feeling quite crappy now, i think i'm just tired (yawwwns).
我从不相信说"惨"或"死"。就算你把全部的测验，甚至考试弄得乱七八糟地不及格，
心里的世界末日不会把你冲走，只会戴你到"明天"的到来。那倒是，说"死"的人总
还未去世嘛。什么东西都会有补救的机会。同样地，任何事情都会有一个新的开始。
-wengchen
i hate getting screamed at by someone who doesnt understand me.
Sayonara.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 2:34 pm.
Monday, June 08, 2009
i remember having a romantic candlelight dinner with my dad two days ago. he's really...the best dad ever. He's not very caring, well he is but he doesnt really show it. But he teaches me everything; whether its the galaxy, or the speed of light, or something like religion, he's a know-it-all. which is why i feel sad for him. He started off the conversation like this: "...my father was a born loser, from the day he was born to the day he died in a car accident" which was true. My paternal grandfather, whom i've yet to see cos he died early, was a loser. He landed heavily in debt and continued gambling away the family fortunes, despite having 8(i think) children and a wife to support. And worse still, he was a coward. He didnt have a proper job and had a hard time facing the loansharks and other debters, so he sent his children to go out and deal with them instead while he just hid at home, cowering and ashamed. Because of this, his children had a hard time studying. Like my dad's younger brother would have to deal with debters every morning before school started. This conversation/arguement could last for ages and cause him to forgo school on a few days of every week. He couldnt study properly this way and thus dropped out of school. Then one day...my grandfather died. my grandmother(still alive now) was...relieved. Can you imagine how sad it would be, for you to feel relieved that your husband died? That aside, my father almost had to drop schooling, having 3 or 4 part time jobs while still in secondary school to support the family. Luckily my grandmother was a very strong woman, she founded a factory and tried her best to earn income, while her children were struggling to study and wanted to quit schooling, she made them study and borrowed money from neighbours and friends to pay for their school fees. My dad's oldest sister was in one of the top JCs, but she told her friend she didnt want to study in a university as the fees was just too expensive. Her friend then told my grandmother, who was saddened and hurriedly borrowed money from her neighbour and she told my dad's sister "dont worry about the money. It will come back someday. just study."
My dad wasnt the oldest among his siblings, but he was nonetheless the smartest and most capable amongst them.(sorry if it sounds like i'm bragging) He topped physics, chem, math, etc. and could explain things in the universe. He always had a dream "i want to become a scientist one day". But his family was already struggling to survive. He was capable, his other brothers(normally only men run the company) were too lazy/uncapable/dropped out of school to inherit such a business. He thought to himself "i need to do something about this, i need to inherit the business and save it from failing as soon as possible. For this...i can let go of my dream. So others wont look down on my family, one that used to have a debtee as a father and one that has a father no more..." So he went to a polytechnic to study business engineering, and hurriedly went out to the real world to continue his mother's business, instead of doing something he really loved, Science and math. A wasted talent. Until now, he still says "if there weren't any of that mess...i'd be doing something i loved to do. something i still love to do." and almost everyday, he would teach me something about the galaxy, he reads alot of issac newtron and stephen hawking books. Like during the dinner, he taught me how light comes in both particles and waves. How some scientist couldnt derive a formula for some light thingy when he tried using waves, then when he put the waves into packets of particles he came up with an ingenius formula. also, how aeroplanes used to be really noisy because the formula for the architechtual of the aeroplane was wrong, and the scientist thought of bending the edge of the wings and the sound immediately stopped. He talks with a passion in his eyes, and with happiness. When he teaches me this kind of things, it makes me feel "why is the world so unfair?" and i really feel so sad for him. But i admire him alot, giving up his dream for a noble cause of saving his family. I'm glad i have such a loving dad. :)
My dad wasnt the oldest among his siblings, but he was nonetheless the smartest and most capable amongst them.(sorry if it sounds like i'm bragging) He topped physics, chem, math, etc. and could explain things in the universe. He always had a dream "i want to become a scientist one day". But his family was already struggling to survive. He was capable, his other brothers(normally only men run the company) were too lazy/uncapable/dropped out of school to inherit such a business. He thought to himself "i need to do something about this, i need to inherit the business and save it from failing as soon as possible. For this...i can let go of my dream. So others wont look down on my family, one that used to have a debtee as a father and one that has a father no more..." So he went to a polytechnic to study business engineering, and hurriedly went out to the real world to continue his mother's business, instead of doing something he really loved, Science and math. A wasted talent. Until now, he still says "if there weren't any of that mess...i'd be doing something i loved to do. something i still love to do." and almost everyday, he would teach me something about the galaxy, he reads alot of issac newtron and stephen hawking books. Like during the dinner, he taught me how light comes in both particles and waves. How some scientist couldnt derive a formula for some light thingy when he tried using waves, then when he put the waves into packets of particles he came up with an ingenius formula. also, how aeroplanes used to be really noisy because the formula for the architechtual of the aeroplane was wrong, and the scientist thought of bending the edge of the wings and the sound immediately stopped. He talks with a passion in his eyes, and with happiness. When he teaches me this kind of things, it makes me feel "why is the world so unfair?" and i really feel so sad for him. But i admire him alot, giving up his dream for a noble cause of saving his family. I'm glad i have such a loving dad. :)
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:57 am.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
gah. this holiday ain't no holiday. i dont even get to go out with people i want to go out with cos they're/i'm so busy. :( wow. my O levels are in july and i'm not preparing. i miss my trips with janeee. i miss going out with xia and haowen. i miss going out with sheen+clar+ismail. i miss everybody but nobody misses me so i should be studying.
remember sound of music? "the hills are alive..." definition of vienna: the most beautiful place on Earth. most beautiful. i can't wait to go there. its a place where you see life everlasting life and no death. a place impossible to have worries. when you see the clear skies, the lakes, the mountains, swaying flowers, gentle cool breeze...you think: shit why am i still in Singapore. :X
there, you can learn how to be human. how to appreciate life, how to think and act as nature does. (and stop being a robot) people there don't study their hair out. they take a deep breath, relax, and let their musicality take flight. whooosh. i havent had that feeling before. November, come hither!
i cant wait for all this to end. i dont think people think about it as much as i do. everytime i see people rushing assignments, crying because they failed a test(worse still crying when they get B3), emoing because they think they suck when they obviously dont but no matter how you try to tell them they're too cynical to accept the truth, i feel dread from the bottom of my stomach. that i have to be one of THEIR kind, that i remember that i have the same amount, if not loads loads more work then them that i've yet to finish, but i'm wasting time looking at them suffer from a more objective view. primary school kids using calculators? p1 kids failing tests? more and more children annually being sent to schools that provide special needs just because their IQ cant be accepted in the current society anymore? why's the whole world speeding up...and me. still stuck in my own world, secretly wishing all this trauma will end. human beings are "smarter" than animals because they're more competitive. they keep expanding their brain usage to maximise their abilities. 10 years laters, people may fly. the "air pork" and "swine flew" jokes may be jokes no longer. and because human scientists keep interfering with nature, and desperately trying to change it...i'd say. we're ruining ourselves. bit by bit. we dont know it, we think we're getting smarter, more well-developed. did you know? that there's a limit to everything you do. did you know? if you keep practising a piece for too long, there will be a climax where you play the piece perfectly. then after that...it just gradually gets worse. and worse. and worse. in the same way, people are impossibly trying to reach beyond the peak we already are at, by trying to achieve what mankind in actual fact cannot achieve, and because of that we are slowly rotting on the inside. not to mention the earth is already rotting and stuff, but it makes me sound like some despondent environmentalist so i'll leave that aside xD
my ear has been bleeding for more than 3 months and it is still not stopping. i'm surprised i haven't bled to death yet. i realise that now i have too many worries, i'm dumping some of them. if i dont i'd go crazy anyway. i think most of you know by now, that i have...if you know then good for you. oh gosh i need to exercise. shopping! :D
jyaaa, ne! <3
remember sound of music? "the hills are alive..." definition of vienna: the most beautiful place on Earth. most beautiful. i can't wait to go there. its a place where you see life everlasting life and no death. a place impossible to have worries. when you see the clear skies, the lakes, the mountains, swaying flowers, gentle cool breeze...you think: shit why am i still in Singapore. :X
there, you can learn how to be human. how to appreciate life, how to think and act as nature does. (and stop being a robot) people there don't study their hair out. they take a deep breath, relax, and let their musicality take flight. whooosh. i havent had that feeling before. November, come hither!
i cant wait for all this to end. i dont think people think about it as much as i do. everytime i see people rushing assignments, crying because they failed a test(worse still crying when they get B3), emoing because they think they suck when they obviously dont but no matter how you try to tell them they're too cynical to accept the truth, i feel dread from the bottom of my stomach. that i have to be one of THEIR kind, that i remember that i have the same amount, if not loads loads more work then them that i've yet to finish, but i'm wasting time looking at them suffer from a more objective view. primary school kids using calculators? p1 kids failing tests? more and more children annually being sent to schools that provide special needs just because their IQ cant be accepted in the current society anymore? why's the whole world speeding up...and me. still stuck in my own world, secretly wishing all this trauma will end. human beings are "smarter" than animals because they're more competitive. they keep expanding their brain usage to maximise their abilities. 10 years laters, people may fly. the "air pork" and "swine flew" jokes may be jokes no longer. and because human scientists keep interfering with nature, and desperately trying to change it...i'd say. we're ruining ourselves. bit by bit. we dont know it, we think we're getting smarter, more well-developed. did you know? that there's a limit to everything you do. did you know? if you keep practising a piece for too long, there will be a climax where you play the piece perfectly. then after that...it just gradually gets worse. and worse. and worse. in the same way, people are impossibly trying to reach beyond the peak we already are at, by trying to achieve what mankind in actual fact cannot achieve, and because of that we are slowly rotting on the inside. not to mention the earth is already rotting and stuff, but it makes me sound like some despondent environmentalist so i'll leave that aside xD
my ear has been bleeding for more than 3 months and it is still not stopping. i'm surprised i haven't bled to death yet. i realise that now i have too many worries, i'm dumping some of them. if i dont i'd go crazy anyway. i think most of you know by now, that i have...if you know then good for you. oh gosh i need to exercise. shopping! :D
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:53 pm.
i've always felt that i have a talent for making people older than me angry. whether its seniors, or teachers, or...other old people. soon i'll be old too. :X
but i think i'm just straightforward. not blunt, but straightforward. when i was young, i would just tell people in the face that they were doing something wrong. even my mother said so haha. like she told me when i was still in nursery, and my sis in kindergarten, my sis'd get bullied by some secondary school rebels in the playground. then i'd just scream at them and scold them using...baby words. cos i couldnt talk hahaha, it probably sounded retarded like "yaba jajapa!" or something of that sort. but this leads me to the point: people dont like hearing the truth. and i havent totally learnt to master the skill of keeping my mouth shut. i realised this in primary school when i got scolded for saying something. would you tell someone in the face that he/she's bossy? then you would have to reflect as well, cos it'd be bossy of you to tell him/her that they're bossy. Singaporeans just save this trouble, and keep. quiet.
"i've to act like some despo for an hour."
"you dont have to act, you just have to be yourself"
yeah i'm sorta hurt. used to be very hurt, i got over it. but its this kind of people that make you want to become a better person.
i think after all that has happened this week, i've made some things clear to myself. i need to be less sensitive to snide remarks, less talkative and open to people that i'm not very familiar with, and of course, more independant. i cant rely on anyone to fight for my stand. Being fierce and confident is important to be able to socialise with all sorts of...people. but as for my straightforwardness, i'm not getting rid of it. stubborn as it seems, i dont like it when people dont get my point and think i'm dumb and scorn at me behind me back. neither do i like the feeling of being dumb and less worthy >___< right now, its too bad for me. but sooner or later, i'll make sure all of it'll become cold hard FACTS. :) that i can be smart, independant, capable and worthy of your time to read this blogpost.
i suddenly remember JSC last year. i was so relieved i 1)made the time limit 2)didnt make any mistakes. then when it was time for the prize presentations...i got last place. i almost cried on stage. i thought i was being too egoistic, too confident over limitation of my own abilities. i just took the prize, went down the stage and heaved a deep breath. "why'm i so stupid..." then suddenly...
"it seems like i have made a mistake. i am SO sorry to contestant number 5. you got second place" i almost shot the emcee from the embarrasment he caused. but at the same time, i was really really really happy. i'm glad i didn't shoot him.
this year, the competition's suffocatingly high, the heat's on but its just getting fun. no matter how saddistic this sounds, ganbare. xD
hopefully this blogpost was more interesting. i shall create a blog to rant and rave. and i shall stop wearing skirts on a particular day of the week.
jyaaa, ne! <3
but i think i'm just straightforward. not blunt, but straightforward. when i was young, i would just tell people in the face that they were doing something wrong. even my mother said so haha. like she told me when i was still in nursery, and my sis in kindergarten, my sis'd get bullied by some secondary school rebels in the playground. then i'd just scream at them and scold them using...baby words. cos i couldnt talk hahaha, it probably sounded retarded like "yaba jajapa!" or something of that sort. but this leads me to the point: people dont like hearing the truth. and i havent totally learnt to master the skill of keeping my mouth shut. i realised this in primary school when i got scolded for saying something. would you tell someone in the face that he/she's bossy? then you would have to reflect as well, cos it'd be bossy of you to tell him/her that they're bossy. Singaporeans just save this trouble, and keep. quiet.
"i've to act like some despo for an hour."
"you dont have to act, you just have to be yourself"
yeah i'm sorta hurt. used to be very hurt, i got over it. but its this kind of people that make you want to become a better person.
i think after all that has happened this week, i've made some things clear to myself. i need to be less sensitive to snide remarks, less talkative and open to people that i'm not very familiar with, and of course, more independant. i cant rely on anyone to fight for my stand. Being fierce and confident is important to be able to socialise with all sorts of...people. but as for my straightforwardness, i'm not getting rid of it. stubborn as it seems, i dont like it when people dont get my point and think i'm dumb and scorn at me behind me back. neither do i like the feeling of being dumb and less worthy >___< right now, its too bad for me. but sooner or later, i'll make sure all of it'll become cold hard FACTS. :) that i can be smart, independant, capable and worthy of your time to read this blogpost.
i suddenly remember JSC last year. i was so relieved i 1)made the time limit 2)didnt make any mistakes. then when it was time for the prize presentations...i got last place. i almost cried on stage. i thought i was being too egoistic, too confident over limitation of my own abilities. i just took the prize, went down the stage and heaved a deep breath. "why'm i so stupid..." then suddenly...
"it seems like i have made a mistake. i am SO sorry to contestant number 5. you got second place" i almost shot the emcee from the embarrasment he caused. but at the same time, i was really really really happy. i'm glad i didn't shoot him.
this year, the competition's suffocatingly high, the heat's on but its just getting fun. no matter how saddistic this sounds, ganbare. xD
hopefully this blogpost was more interesting. i shall create a blog to rant and rave. and i shall stop wearing skirts on a particular day of the week.
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 5:37 pm.
