Thursday, June 04, 2009
gah. this holiday ain't no holiday. i dont even get to go out with people i want to go out with cos they're/i'm so busy. :( wow. my O levels are in july and i'm not preparing. i miss my trips with janeee. i miss going out with xia and haowen. i miss going out with sheen+clar+ismail. i miss everybody but nobody misses me so i should be studying.
remember sound of music? "the hills are alive..." definition of vienna: the most beautiful place on Earth. most beautiful. i can't wait to go there. its a place where you see life everlasting life and no death. a place impossible to have worries. when you see the clear skies, the lakes, the mountains, swaying flowers, gentle cool breeze...you think: shit why am i still in Singapore. :X
there, you can learn how to be human. how to appreciate life, how to think and act as nature does. (and stop being a robot) people there don't study their hair out. they take a deep breath, relax, and let their musicality take flight. whooosh. i havent had that feeling before. November, come hither!
i cant wait for all this to end. i dont think people think about it as much as i do. everytime i see people rushing assignments, crying because they failed a test(worse still crying when they get B3), emoing because they think they suck when they obviously dont but no matter how you try to tell them they're too cynical to accept the truth, i feel dread from the bottom of my stomach. that i have to be one of THEIR kind, that i remember that i have the same amount, if not loads loads more work then them that i've yet to finish, but i'm wasting time looking at them suffer from a more objective view. primary school kids using calculators? p1 kids failing tests? more and more children annually being sent to schools that provide special needs just because their IQ cant be accepted in the current society anymore? why's the whole world speeding up...and me. still stuck in my own world, secretly wishing all this trauma will end. human beings are "smarter" than animals because they're more competitive. they keep expanding their brain usage to maximise their abilities. 10 years laters, people may fly. the "air pork" and "swine flew" jokes may be jokes no longer. and because human scientists keep interfering with nature, and desperately trying to change it...i'd say. we're ruining ourselves. bit by bit. we dont know it, we think we're getting smarter, more well-developed. did you know? that there's a limit to everything you do. did you know? if you keep practising a piece for too long, there will be a climax where you play the piece perfectly. then after that...it just gradually gets worse. and worse. and worse. in the same way, people are impossibly trying to reach beyond the peak we already are at, by trying to achieve what mankind in actual fact cannot achieve, and because of that we are slowly rotting on the inside. not to mention the earth is already rotting and stuff, but it makes me sound like some despondent environmentalist so i'll leave that aside xD
my ear has been bleeding for more than 3 months and it is still not stopping. i'm surprised i haven't bled to death yet. i realise that now i have too many worries, i'm dumping some of them. if i dont i'd go crazy anyway. i think most of you know by now, that i have...if you know then good for you. oh gosh i need to exercise. shopping! :D
jyaaa, ne! <3
remember sound of music? "the hills are alive..." definition of vienna: the most beautiful place on Earth. most beautiful. i can't wait to go there. its a place where you see life everlasting life and no death. a place impossible to have worries. when you see the clear skies, the lakes, the mountains, swaying flowers, gentle cool breeze...you think: shit why am i still in Singapore. :X
there, you can learn how to be human. how to appreciate life, how to think and act as nature does. (and stop being a robot) people there don't study their hair out. they take a deep breath, relax, and let their musicality take flight. whooosh. i havent had that feeling before. November, come hither!
i cant wait for all this to end. i dont think people think about it as much as i do. everytime i see people rushing assignments, crying because they failed a test(worse still crying when they get B3), emoing because they think they suck when they obviously dont but no matter how you try to tell them they're too cynical to accept the truth, i feel dread from the bottom of my stomach. that i have to be one of THEIR kind, that i remember that i have the same amount, if not loads loads more work then them that i've yet to finish, but i'm wasting time looking at them suffer from a more objective view. primary school kids using calculators? p1 kids failing tests? more and more children annually being sent to schools that provide special needs just because their IQ cant be accepted in the current society anymore? why's the whole world speeding up...and me. still stuck in my own world, secretly wishing all this trauma will end. human beings are "smarter" than animals because they're more competitive. they keep expanding their brain usage to maximise their abilities. 10 years laters, people may fly. the "air pork" and "swine flew" jokes may be jokes no longer. and because human scientists keep interfering with nature, and desperately trying to change it...i'd say. we're ruining ourselves. bit by bit. we dont know it, we think we're getting smarter, more well-developed. did you know? that there's a limit to everything you do. did you know? if you keep practising a piece for too long, there will be a climax where you play the piece perfectly. then after that...it just gradually gets worse. and worse. and worse. in the same way, people are impossibly trying to reach beyond the peak we already are at, by trying to achieve what mankind in actual fact cannot achieve, and because of that we are slowly rotting on the inside. not to mention the earth is already rotting and stuff, but it makes me sound like some despondent environmentalist so i'll leave that aside xD
my ear has been bleeding for more than 3 months and it is still not stopping. i'm surprised i haven't bled to death yet. i realise that now i have too many worries, i'm dumping some of them. if i dont i'd go crazy anyway. i think most of you know by now, that i have...if you know then good for you. oh gosh i need to exercise. shopping! :D
jyaaa, ne! <3
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 8:53 pm.
