Sunday, June 14, 2009
i dont like my feelings to be played by other people. i cant bring myself to believe anything that sounds like "i love you" anymore. its always just another trick to make me dependant on others. the people i loved have always left me. i wont love anyone, then nobody i love can leave me. makes sense. liar, cheater, why're people doing this to me!?
maybe when i'm much much older, i will find someone who really likes me :) but right now...the people i'm attached to are just a bunch of crude swindlers. like what my mother said today.
"you've learnt not to trust people so much. they always betray you."
"only your family members will truly love you. the working world...dont trust them."
"she's not coming back. dont give yourself false hope. she broke her promise."
"i'll always be by your side to protect you. i'm your friend." AND THEN YOU GUYS RUN AWAY WHEN I MOST NEED YOU T.T ITS ALWAYS THE SAME ISNT IT. NIGGERS. STOP LYING TO ME, REALLY. i'm not stupid, i cant stand it...dont play me. T.T what makes you think that slinking out of my life solves problems! what makes you think being friends for a short while, then giving me the cold shoulder, will still make us friends! what makes you think i'll be so magnanimous to forgive you when you lie to me about being great life-long friends then dumping me at one side like a plush...its not fun. game over. my heart's broken, you dont know it, but you're just secretly hoping that maybe i've forgiven you already. its because of all of you filthy liars, that has made me someone so cold inside. I dont want to have a really good friend. I dont want to have a crush, like anybody, or accept anyone's feelings cos they'll just leave me alone. i'm sure of it. STUPID PEOPLE WHO LEAVE ME ALONE AND RUN AWAY IN COWARDICE. mou...ai ga iranai no.
maybe when i'm much much older, i will find someone who really likes me :) but right now...the people i'm attached to are just a bunch of crude swindlers. like what my mother said today.
"you've learnt not to trust people so much. they always betray you."
"only your family members will truly love you. the working world...dont trust them."
"she's not coming back. dont give yourself false hope. she broke her promise."
"i'll always be by your side to protect you. i'm your friend." AND THEN YOU GUYS RUN AWAY WHEN I MOST NEED YOU T.T ITS ALWAYS THE SAME ISNT IT. NIGGERS. STOP LYING TO ME, REALLY. i'm not stupid, i cant stand it...dont play me. T.T what makes you think that slinking out of my life solves problems! what makes you think being friends for a short while, then giving me the cold shoulder, will still make us friends! what makes you think i'll be so magnanimous to forgive you when you lie to me about being great life-long friends then dumping me at one side like a plush...its not fun. game over. my heart's broken, you dont know it, but you're just secretly hoping that maybe i've forgiven you already. its because of all of you filthy liars, that has made me someone so cold inside. I dont want to have a really good friend. I dont want to have a crush, like anybody, or accept anyone's feelings cos they'll just leave me alone. i'm sure of it. STUPID PEOPLE WHO LEAVE ME ALONE AND RUN AWAY IN COWARDICE. mou...ai ga iranai no.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 6:10 pm.
