Sunday, November 29, 2009
牛乳チョー大チュキ！！
広告見たりずっと笑いげな顔がしちゃった。
合格しなきゃああああ。
ごしんごしん！！
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 7:46 pm.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
i'd like to say..
-bzz. i'm going to fail jlpt 2 and kiss A's ass.
-fujii lena is awwsomeeee8D
-i wanna learn the double loop before i go back to prison in january
-i wanna strangle mrs soh and tell her its all a misunderstanding T__T!!!!
-theory hmk sos
-ja-ja-ja-japan
-i wish my brain was as good as william's yangqin playing
-when i tell you "no, its okay. nevermind." i expect you to do it and heck care me.
-national piano competition..~__~ *severe blood loss
-bzz. i'm going to fail jlpt 2 and kiss A's ass.
-fujii lena is awwsomeeee8D
-i wanna learn the double loop before i go back to prison in january
-i wanna strangle mrs soh and tell her its all a misunderstanding T__T!!!!
-theory hmk sos
-ja-ja-ja-japan
-i wish my brain was as good as william's yangqin playing
-when i tell you "no, its okay. nevermind." i expect you to do it and heck care me.
-national piano competition..~__~ *severe blood loss
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:20 pm.
Friday, November 27, 2009
as much as i wanted to censor this post, i just feel the need to splurge on my blog.
recently, i've been having the same train(s) of thoughts running through my mind.
here are some of em:
1)the school train of thought
-i really dont like my school because of the people in it. i dont understand why they have to keep talking about guys bcuz i really dont care. i dont understand why they have to bitch about each other, and why they are so fake in school. school's like a drama centre for them to act their way through the 4 fake years. and the teachers are..awesome :/ i dont understand why they must bitch about each other, like my chinese teacher last year. since they're grownups and moreover, colleagues, cant they just tolerate each other in a more professional way rather than ranting to their students? its like a waiter telling a customer to hiatus while he's ordering stuff just so that he can go to the restroom. and the way they show favouritism is unacceptable. there's this constant nagging in my head that i should heck care about school next year, and just mug my way through it so that time can pass faster then i can finally go to jc.
2)
i dont feel like blogging about it anymore.
recently, i've been having the same train(s) of thoughts running through my mind.
here are some of em:
1)the school train of thought
-i really dont like my school because of the people in it. i dont understand why they have to keep talking about guys bcuz i really dont care. i dont understand why they have to bitch about each other, and why they are so fake in school. school's like a drama centre for them to act their way through the 4 fake years. and the teachers are..awesome :/ i dont understand why they must bitch about each other, like my chinese teacher last year. since they're grownups and moreover, colleagues, cant they just tolerate each other in a more professional way rather than ranting to their students? its like a waiter telling a customer to hiatus while he's ordering stuff just so that he can go to the restroom. and the way they show favouritism is unacceptable. there's this constant nagging in my head that i should heck care about school next year, and just mug my way through it so that time can pass faster then i can finally go to jc.
2)
i dont feel like blogging about it anymore.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:23 pm.
you keep telling me.
so i keep nodding.
some things are just more important than others. if not, they're just more significant in my life.
i wish someone could smile at me like they meant it now.
i want to start life afresh at a faraway place.
so i keep nodding.
some things are just more important than others. if not, they're just more significant in my life.
i wish someone could smile at me like they meant it now.
i want to start life afresh at a faraway place.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:34 pm.
Monday, November 23, 2009
i'm getting real fat :D
JAPANSICK. whoohoo.
JAPANSICK. whoohoo.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:30 am.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
everybody loves me on mah birthday! :D LOOL
today was awezsomeeee <3
awesome mainly thanks to kitchong:D 今日はありがとーう！ｗｗ for taking time out to celebrate my bdae with me, the awesomeeee dedication(that the laupok radio couldnt broadcast successfully D:< ) and for being such a wonderful friend :)
and my family:D for that superyooperdooperuberdelicious dinner @ swissotel tonight :)
thanks so much daddy i lurvbesxzxz you to bits!! <3
to janeeee, thanks so much for the letter you wrote! you're a great friend :)
and to clarenceeee sempai, thanks so much for the present!! :D
and everyone else who smsed me well wishes tahdayy :P
i feel really lucky that you guys were there for me during the 15 years of my life.
i would like to thank everyone i know for making an imprint in that 15 years path.
taylor swift-fifteen
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
Its the morning of your very first day
you say hi to your friends you aint seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybodys way
its your freshman year and youre gonna be here
for the next four years in this town
hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
you know I havent seen you around, before
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen
feeling like there nothing to figure out
well count to ten, take it in
this is life before who youre gonna be
fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
and soon enough youre best friends
laughing at the other girls who think theyre so cool
well be out of here as soon as we can
and then youre on your very first date and hes got a car
and youre feeling like flying
and youre momas waiting up and you think hes the one
and youre dancing round your room when the night end
when the night ends
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
youre gonna believe them
when youre fifteen and your first kiss
makes your head spin round but
in your life youll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
but I didnt know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
but I realized some bigger dreams of mine
and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
who changed his mind and we both cried
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who youre supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
La la la la la .. la la la la la . La la la la la
Youre very first day
take a deep breath girl
take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.
today was awezsomeeee <3
awesome mainly thanks to kitchong:D 今日はありがとーう！ｗｗ for taking time out to celebrate my bdae with me, the awesomeeee dedication(that the laupok radio couldnt broadcast successfully D:< ) and for being such a wonderful friend :)
and my family:D for that superyooperdooperuberdelicious dinner @ swissotel tonight :)
thanks so much daddy i lurvbesxzxz you to bits!! <3
to janeeee, thanks so much for the letter you wrote! you're a great friend :)
and to clarenceeee sempai, thanks so much for the present!! :D
and everyone else who smsed me well wishes tahdayy :P
i feel really lucky that you guys were there for me during the 15 years of my life.
i would like to thank everyone i know for making an imprint in that 15 years path.
taylor swift-fifteen
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
Its the morning of your very first day
you say hi to your friends you aint seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybodys way
its your freshman year and youre gonna be here
for the next four years in this town
hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
you know I havent seen you around, before
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen
feeling like there nothing to figure out
well count to ten, take it in
this is life before who youre gonna be
fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
and soon enough youre best friends
laughing at the other girls who think theyre so cool
well be out of here as soon as we can
and then youre on your very first date and hes got a car
and youre feeling like flying
and youre momas waiting up and you think hes the one
and youre dancing round your room when the night end
when the night ends
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
youre gonna believe them
when youre fifteen and your first kiss
makes your head spin round but
in your life youll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
but I didnt know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
but I realized some bigger dreams of mine
and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
who changed his mind and we both cried
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who youre supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
La la la la la .. la la la la la . La la la la la
Youre very first day
take a deep breath girl
take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 10:50 pm.
Friday, November 20, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :D
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:59 pm.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
i feel so..:/
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 11:42 am.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
i've always thought that being able to see the beautiful side of anything and everything is an art, or a gift.
especially in singapore, most people neglect the beauty they can find in other people and choose to hunt in nook and crevices for other sorts of typical beauty.
the most indirect way to put it would be: find beauty in math instead of beauty in art.
anyway, yesterday was fun :D had a hth talk with Kit :D super funny. then we went to watch deuce bigalow! lol comedyyyy shows are the best :p then after that his parents and my parents started talking about..taichi..(*at a loss for words)
haha the unglam convo sounded damn funny though i didnt understand it. :3
my birthday's in a few days but it feels like some normal unsignificant day of the week. when i was young i used to anticipate the arrival of the day of my birthday like some twit waiting for santa to buttcrash her chimney during christmas. now my birthday doesnt seem like some really really important day anymore.
going ice-skating tml :D
especially in singapore, most people neglect the beauty they can find in other people and choose to hunt in nook and crevices for other sorts of typical beauty.
the most indirect way to put it would be: find beauty in math instead of beauty in art.
anyway, yesterday was fun :D had a hth talk with Kit :D super funny. then we went to watch deuce bigalow! lol comedyyyy shows are the best :p then after that his parents and my parents started talking about..taichi..(*at a loss for words)
haha the unglam convo sounded damn funny though i didnt understand it. :3
my birthday's in a few days but it feels like some normal unsignificant day of the week. when i was young i used to anticipate the arrival of the day of my birthday like some twit waiting for santa to buttcrash her chimney during christmas. now my birthday doesnt seem like some really really important day anymore.
going ice-skating tml :D
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:00 pm.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
sometimes, to be dreaming is to be awakened and thus enlightened.
i had this really strange dream yesterday.
my sister died from some terminal illness. at that time, i was dying in the hospital, and in excrutiating pain from some chemo treatment thingy. then i heard my mom say "dont hold on to your suffering. just leave in peace." i vaguely saw my father's eyes brimmed with tears upon seeing how both his daughters had died. he wasn't facing me cos he didnt want me to see his misery when i was suffering and about to die.
and i died.
then i apprehensively walked up the stairway to heaven, hoping that maybe i'd be able to contact my sister there. then i felt someone grabbing my hand and pulling me somewhere, and i realised it was my sister when i peered infront. the sky in heaven was gray and dull, something i would never have expected it to be. but i've always believed that heaven isn't a place where people have eternal happiness. its a place where people are separated from their emotions and emotional attachment to the human world. that gray didnt make me sad, but i felt..strangely empty. like a feeling of no worries no happiness no sadness no nothing but that nothingness itself felt bland and uneasy. but my sister was smiling as she took me to this turqoise(?) ocean and invited me to swim to the shore on the other end with her. i agreed as there was noone in sight and i didnt want to be left alone in the void world i was in. at the shore, we started swinging on this skyscraping swing where you could literally touch the sky as it was as high or higher than the eiffel tower. at this point, i would be so scared i'd have fainted on that damn swing, but i couldnt feel that scare poking me in my chest. as the days went by, i started to let go more of my emotional attachment, i forgot all about my family and friends and just played with my sister. my heart started to blossom with a faint happiness. until..
okay if you're thinking the above was madass weird the following gets weirder.
i got down the swing. i wanted to go and explore more of the place i was in but my sister just continued swinging. she said she'd join me later and that she'd be able to find me. though i felt something was wrong, i stupidly left the place i was in and walked towards the bland horizon. i cant explain, cos everything there is not happy, not sad, but bland. as i travelled further and further from my sister, i found myself panicking as i landed in this unknown destination. panic was something i thought i needn't have felt anymore, so something was definitely wrong. worried, i suddenly realised.
i was infront of my front porch.
my parents were overjoyed to see me, it seemed like i had "revived", they thought maybe a miracle had happened. my chest suffocated in bittersweet happiness. as i scrutinized the once-familiar surrounding, my mother cooked dinner and called me to come and eat. the moment i sat down at the dinner table, i got the shock of my life when i saw my sister staring at me. smiling. if i knew vulgarities in my dream i would've blabbered them all out cos it seemed like a blasphemy. like, WHAT IN THE WORLD IS MY SISTER DOING HERE!! i thought i'd lost her in heaven..
anyway, strange as it seems, i didnt dwell much time on thinking about the reason to my sister's sudden appearance. i spent days and nights just being around my family, like i was alive. at the back of my mind, i knew something was so wrong but i chose to ignore it as i wanted to be in self-denial. i didnt want to leave my parents and friends. all that while, a clock was ticking....
suddenly, one fateful day, a few gigantic flies flew in my direction. my mother fanned them off but they bit her and more of them kept coming back. i had a panic adrenaline rush whatever you call it. i finally realised why i was back on earth:
there were some things i was stil emotionally-attached to. there were some things that i felt i needed to do and i couldnt get over it even when i was in heaven. somethings i wanted to do so badly before i died..
the flies were going to get to me soon. i didnt have time. hurriedly, i scrambled to get my phone and started smsing someone(i'm not going to reveal anybody i called or anything i said to them looool), i thanked someone for all that she did for me all this while. i called another important person and told him there was something i really wanted to do before i died and i needed to do it asap or i wouldnt get the chance to ever again. i called one last person and told him there was something really important i needed to do. so much to do, so little time..
i could hear the buzzing sound faraway getting louder and louder and my heart thumped louder and louder in panic. the last thing i did was..
i stared at my dad and hugged him and started crying. i screamed at him "dad, i love you. thank you for all that you've done". the billions of flies finally entered through the door and started eating my face. my mother hugged me tightly and kept brushing the flies away from my face but there were just too many of them. i kept tugging at her arm to feel the warmth(you know when people die they're hard and cold and all but living people are warm and stuff) which i hadnt felt ever since i was dead. i told her the same thing i told my dad and started crying in exasperation and sadness when i saw how she was screaming and going wild in trying to make me not get eaten by the flies. my time was up. i had to escape back to heaven or i would rot from the flies. my sister and i radiated this heavenly glow, waved goodbye at our parents and we left the human world. i just kept thinking of the stuff i haven't got the chance to do and how i wasted my last chance to finish them off..
then it was 2am in the morning when i woke up. the strangest thing was that i woke up feeling half dead and half alive. and that the palm of my hand was hot like someone had been holding it.
it wasnt just a dream. it was a wakeup call, a message from God. i stared at my sleeping parents and tears flowed down my cheeks. not because i was sad, but because i realised i still had time with them. and also because i felt in my heart, that i have many, many regrets in my life. and i havent used time to amend them. i still have time to before its too late and i'm dead.
i have to stop regretting and start cherishing.
start loving and stop hating.
i had this really strange dream yesterday.
my sister died from some terminal illness. at that time, i was dying in the hospital, and in excrutiating pain from some chemo treatment thingy. then i heard my mom say "dont hold on to your suffering. just leave in peace." i vaguely saw my father's eyes brimmed with tears upon seeing how both his daughters had died. he wasn't facing me cos he didnt want me to see his misery when i was suffering and about to die.
and i died.
then i apprehensively walked up the stairway to heaven, hoping that maybe i'd be able to contact my sister there. then i felt someone grabbing my hand and pulling me somewhere, and i realised it was my sister when i peered infront. the sky in heaven was gray and dull, something i would never have expected it to be. but i've always believed that heaven isn't a place where people have eternal happiness. its a place where people are separated from their emotions and emotional attachment to the human world. that gray didnt make me sad, but i felt..strangely empty. like a feeling of no worries no happiness no sadness no nothing but that nothingness itself felt bland and uneasy. but my sister was smiling as she took me to this turqoise(?) ocean and invited me to swim to the shore on the other end with her. i agreed as there was noone in sight and i didnt want to be left alone in the void world i was in. at the shore, we started swinging on this skyscraping swing where you could literally touch the sky as it was as high or higher than the eiffel tower. at this point, i would be so scared i'd have fainted on that damn swing, but i couldnt feel that scare poking me in my chest. as the days went by, i started to let go more of my emotional attachment, i forgot all about my family and friends and just played with my sister. my heart started to blossom with a faint happiness. until..
okay if you're thinking the above was madass weird the following gets weirder.
i got down the swing. i wanted to go and explore more of the place i was in but my sister just continued swinging. she said she'd join me later and that she'd be able to find me. though i felt something was wrong, i stupidly left the place i was in and walked towards the bland horizon. i cant explain, cos everything there is not happy, not sad, but bland. as i travelled further and further from my sister, i found myself panicking as i landed in this unknown destination. panic was something i thought i needn't have felt anymore, so something was definitely wrong. worried, i suddenly realised.
i was infront of my front porch.
my parents were overjoyed to see me, it seemed like i had "revived", they thought maybe a miracle had happened. my chest suffocated in bittersweet happiness. as i scrutinized the once-familiar surrounding, my mother cooked dinner and called me to come and eat. the moment i sat down at the dinner table, i got the shock of my life when i saw my sister staring at me. smiling. if i knew vulgarities in my dream i would've blabbered them all out cos it seemed like a blasphemy. like, WHAT IN THE WORLD IS MY SISTER DOING HERE!! i thought i'd lost her in heaven..
anyway, strange as it seems, i didnt dwell much time on thinking about the reason to my sister's sudden appearance. i spent days and nights just being around my family, like i was alive. at the back of my mind, i knew something was so wrong but i chose to ignore it as i wanted to be in self-denial. i didnt want to leave my parents and friends. all that while, a clock was ticking....
suddenly, one fateful day, a few gigantic flies flew in my direction. my mother fanned them off but they bit her and more of them kept coming back. i had a panic adrenaline rush whatever you call it. i finally realised why i was back on earth:
there were some things i was stil emotionally-attached to. there were some things that i felt i needed to do and i couldnt get over it even when i was in heaven. somethings i wanted to do so badly before i died..
the flies were going to get to me soon. i didnt have time. hurriedly, i scrambled to get my phone and started smsing someone(i'm not going to reveal anybody i called or anything i said to them looool), i thanked someone for all that she did for me all this while. i called another important person and told him there was something i really wanted to do before i died and i needed to do it asap or i wouldnt get the chance to ever again. i called one last person and told him there was something really important i needed to do. so much to do, so little time..
i could hear the buzzing sound faraway getting louder and louder and my heart thumped louder and louder in panic. the last thing i did was..
i stared at my dad and hugged him and started crying. i screamed at him "dad, i love you. thank you for all that you've done". the billions of flies finally entered through the door and started eating my face. my mother hugged me tightly and kept brushing the flies away from my face but there were just too many of them. i kept tugging at her arm to feel the warmth(you know when people die they're hard and cold and all but living people are warm and stuff) which i hadnt felt ever since i was dead. i told her the same thing i told my dad and started crying in exasperation and sadness when i saw how she was screaming and going wild in trying to make me not get eaten by the flies. my time was up. i had to escape back to heaven or i would rot from the flies. my sister and i radiated this heavenly glow, waved goodbye at our parents and we left the human world. i just kept thinking of the stuff i haven't got the chance to do and how i wasted my last chance to finish them off..
then it was 2am in the morning when i woke up. the strangest thing was that i woke up feeling half dead and half alive. and that the palm of my hand was hot like someone had been holding it.
it wasnt just a dream. it was a wakeup call, a message from God. i stared at my sleeping parents and tears flowed down my cheeks. not because i was sad, but because i realised i still had time with them. and also because i felt in my heart, that i have many, many regrets in my life. and i havent used time to amend them. i still have time to before its too late and i'm dead.
i have to stop regretting and start cherishing.
start loving and stop hating.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:30 pm.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
and the above was what happened during math lesson today.
i think i've found a new passion! jyajyaaang :p
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:52 pm.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
GAAAAH!!!!
i'm thinking of alot of things.
definitely not..1)miss leong's voice when it hilariously broke while she was screeching 2)how i'm very extremely fat now 3)how i've yet to study for chinese 4)my birthday 8D
sth random.
me: yo!
xia: eh? you're still in this school ah?
(LOOL)
xia: (holds up a banana) fat and happy 8D
another random convo
qian yu: wengchen can harmonise? how she do one? so cool (haha durhh)
weitian: yeah. just sing a third apart.
qian yu: yeah i know!!
(then??)
somethings that i know are true..makes me sad
rapper: i aint cryin'. crying only to moisturize muhh eyes.
i need to slap someone in the face really hard.
or maybe like throw someone to the other end of the world.
i cant stand weak people that really make me go crazy by telling me their everyday woes. like how they hate themselves, the people around them, etc then they break down and start crying while they talk.
siao. sometimes i emo until i can go overboard.
okay i'm over it :D (spastic mood change)
dont feel like blogging today.
BYE
i'm thinking of alot of things.
definitely not..1)miss leong's voice when it hilariously broke while she was screeching 2)how i'm very extremely fat now 3)how i've yet to study for chinese 4)my birthday 8D
sth random.
me: yo!
xia: eh? you're still in this school ah?
(LOOL)
xia: (holds up a banana) fat and happy 8D
another random convo
qian yu: wengchen can harmonise? how she do one? so cool (haha durhh)
weitian: yeah. just sing a third apart.
qian yu: yeah i know!!
(then??)
somethings that i know are true..makes me sad
rapper: i aint cryin'. crying only to moisturize muhh eyes.
i need to slap someone in the face really hard.
or maybe like throw someone to the other end of the world.
i cant stand weak people that really make me go crazy by telling me their everyday woes. like how they hate themselves, the people around them, etc then they break down and start crying while they talk.
siao. sometimes i emo until i can go overboard.
okay i'm over it :D (spastic mood change)
dont feel like blogging today.
BYE
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:52 pm.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
watching the American version of my sassy girl makes me....horrendously love****
isnt that the grossest thing ever.
asides that-
i feel like using this post to 1)complain as usual 2)rant and everything else
i went for the most interesting tour around Singapore today. and by most interesting i mean as interesting as miss leong which also means boring to the depths of the deepest ocean in the world. its the most interesting tour in majullah singapura already. :/
AHHHHILURVEYUNAKIMYUNAKIM'SGRASSHOPPERLEGS!!!!D: <333333333
then i was super irritated by this ang mo kio aunty that chided me while i was freaking sleeping on the coach. my anger volcano was erupting ~_~ like i seriously felt like throwing the mountain of lava inside me onto her larger-than-life peek-a-boo face. she was complaining that i was sitting on her seat when its freaking free seating hello was the chair i was sitting on specially constructed to fit her butt and only her flabby butt? Is her butt imprint on the chair in the shape of a rose?
i wanna rant because..
alot of things that i dont feel like typing out.
OMGIHAVENTDIDTHENESURVEYAHHHHD:
ya see? i have alot more things to rant about :X
isnt that the grossest thing ever.
asides that-
i feel like using this post to 1)complain as usual 2)rant and everything else
i went for the most interesting tour around Singapore today. and by most interesting i mean as interesting as miss leong which also means boring to the depths of the deepest ocean in the world. its the most interesting tour in majullah singapura already. :/
AHHHHILURVE
then i was super irritated by this ang mo kio aunty that chided me while i was freaking sleeping on the coach. my anger volcano was erupting ~_~ like i seriously felt like throwing the mountain of lava inside me onto her larger-than-life peek-a-boo face. she was complaining that i was sitting on her seat when its freaking free seating hello was the chair i was sitting on specially constructed to fit her butt and only her flabby butt? Is her butt imprint on the chair in the shape of a rose?
i wanna rant because..
alot of things that i dont feel like typing out.
OMGIHAVENTDIDTHENESURVEYAHHHHD:
ya see? i have alot more things to rant about :X
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 9:59 pm.
i miss someone. alot. T__T
i miss someplace alot too. but i'm still waiting and waiting.
i miss someplace alot too. but i'm still waiting and waiting.
何時も同じな空の下で笑えるからさ, 4:23 pm.
